cutthekidinhalf

gosh,, life sux..and this krazy complicated drama makes me sick.. I think it was wrong of me or soemthing?

my tummy is killing me and shit.. ohwell. iguess i should be happy.. cause i will have my period pretty soon.

although this is my spring break, i am still here,, being pathetic, depressed, questioning for nothing..

Am i supposed to open up? damn,.. no one says " i will call you." when we say good bye..

Am i asking for too much,, i don't want to pressure.. see? I really don't know what i want.. I do.. i just don;t want to express myself..

I hate myself so much.. there are so many things for me to get myself together..I wasted so much shit. now i feel like a shit...

I really wish i can remember every single thing thing that i read, see, do. hear. .... i forget things easily.. I taught myself to forget to forget about my sorrow, my trauma, my tears.. now i can't even remember happy thoughts...

AM i just really bitter to listen to any type of happy music? maybe i am jealous of people who are so happy and smile all the time..

I neeed a good idea for my design assignment..i think i am putting too much effor on art 200 class.. but i really enjoy it.. and my professor is super cool.. i realized that I talked A LOT..
gosh, i hope my conversation is not too boring to people that i talked to...

yeah,, i feel like i am semi-educated..and liberal..also i al realizing how old i am now...damn i am kinda scared..i am such a coward..I am fucking shy.. i can't really talk about myself to anyone.. i thinki tried so much to be an outgoing person..but i am stilll so shy.. deep down.. I am so shallow.....

Do i still like him?? everyone says that I don't..hmm.. Do i? see.. i don't trust myself~ i am confused myself