cutthekidinhalf

I feel like a shit today. I m listening to a cd my friend made me.. I like when people make me cd..

ok i have a bad fucking memory and i need to

- pay my cellphone bill
- get a money order for my parking ticket
- buy bew blinds
- take pics of more shadows
- get bigger bristol board
- get inkjet catridge for my printer
- work out
- buy more nipple rings

I think i might just go to Detroit and walk around there to take pics..

I had about 5-6 beers last night..

I was totally skipping my sociology class for 1 1/2 week.. I didn't finish a paper that was due already.. I was trying to acoid the professor but he saw me last night at schoool and " hey, Ruda, what's wrong???" i was like " shit, I am screwed!!"..
WEll,, I ended up talking to him for about 30 min.. and YAY!! for my cool awesome professor.. he said i can finish my paper whenever i want....and I luv him..
I am so glad because i really thought about dropping that class..

M and I were talking about " marriage" and shit last night.. I mean.. I guess I am that old now.. I don't want to get married till I am 30,,,I don't want no millionaire.or billionarie.. I don't want a boy who will buy me stuff...because I cam afford him... I want a guy who is very bright.. funny..cute ( of course ) , arty ( not too arty), kind... I don't care if he've got his degree on Electrical Engineering or communication...

We will have two separate rooms though...not bed rooms.. but rooms to put drawings, cds, toys, and other stuff..

GOsh I feel so old.. I dun believe in looking for that special someone.. if he or she is there... I will feel it!!! oh well.. seems like this whole marriage /soul mate thinggy sounds too complicated to me.. I might just live by myself and become a krazy kat lady,. ( i already am...with 3 cats)..

I am not feeling well..
I really don't expect anything from him, him just beling there gives me a big smile. ( yeah call me fuckiing emo)
I feel like a shit cause I don't think he fucking cares or he doesn't show it.. ( fuck it, I really don't care,, i try not to expect anything because I don't want to be dissapointed)..

I get dissapointed, and get depressed a lot with very small things.. I learned myself not to be needy..and try to control myself ....

SHit I 've got a long fucking " to do" list.. i better go now..

HAve a great spring break everyone...!!!!