cutnhalf

Okay so this is the worst I have ever felt....The sad thing is I actually had a decent night last night...But it did not last....I smoked myself retarded and listened to my new satellite radio.....My house lost power(my hole neighborhood did) pitch black returning home...still istening to my satelite radio....What comes on my radio but "I love my answering machine".....God I fucking miss you...I missu so much...Gilley is doing everything he can to keep me from going insane and keeping me out of the hospital....ITS NOT FUCKING WORKING! FUck.....I sat in my room last night in the blackness listening to MY Chemical Rommance....I sobbed....You have no idea what you mean to me....Can feel my health failing AND I DONT GIVE A FUCK!.....One last tatoo...this weekend.....FOR YOU!....Everyone is probbably happy you left me....EVERYONE BUT ME!