Cant seem to sleep.Cant seem to think straight. At least not without thinking of you.I never thought I could miss someone so much. Never thought my life would get so fucked up. My best freind is asleep in the next room. he cant even help. Not that he does not want to or has'nt tried. i am really beyond help at this point.When the things that matter most to you fall apart its the hardest thing to deal with. When you always feel alone its really hard to wake up in the morning. I'm sorry if I am babbling..I've been doing that way too much lately. i have only one way to describe how im feeling....If you have seen Garden state you will understand this if not you are SOL....The scene when Zack Braff is at the party and does E...and evrything is going on around and he is in a room full of people...But he just looks like he is so far away from everyone.....Thats how I feel right now..And have for a while....feeling numb isdriving me nuts! 
