A girl I knew a lifetime ago teased me on Snapchat yesterday ... and it made me feel young, alive, horny and good.
It's the little things they say. The little things.
Booked myself in a hotel in Boston for the week-end.
The cold here in Montreal is too depressing, need a chanhge of air.
Who knows, maybe I'll catch some of that Irish Luck.
Who knows.
And I still hate this day, even after a good year.
Hate the fact that I don't have a family party to go to.
Hate the fact that I can't stand the idea of going to a party in a family that is not mine, because I become anxious, and sad, and envious in a way I can't really illustrate.
Hate the fact that this...
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zely:
:(.... va dans le vieux port ya un party !
I tried something new this year -- I let a girl introduced me to her folks on christmas.
Long story short, I really don't like christmas parties all that much. We had family issues when I was young and gift giving was never really in the picture, so, basically, ever since I live on my own in Montreal, I've been spending Christmas on my own...
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zely:
hey les nerfs ! Ça va aller ! elle va comprendre (jespere) faut juste lui expliquer qui a du monde moins chanceux dans la vie et que c'est dur de changer qui on est apres si longtemps ! lache pas ! jsuis contente de savoir que tu netais pas seul :)
Over the last couple of weeks, a girl came into my life - maybe to stick around.
It's easy to forget how sweetness feels like.
When you're alone, over the years, nothing is sweet anymore. Everything's bitter. Disapointing.
Kindness, as a stranger, never comes without a tiring effort.
With someone in my life, sort of, I have to remember to smile once in a while....
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A great sense of guilt washes over me after a day of not doing a thing.
Wanted to go out, but didn't feel like chasing « friends » to pretend like I have something to do.
So I worked and watched football. What else can you do when everything else fails? Work, and work some more.
I used to enjoy these days inside. Not getting...
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Been listening to a lot of stand-up lately (namely Patton Oswalt) and I was wondering -- when do we dare to let the idea of depression sink into our mind?
We feel down, some days are rough. Everybody gets that.
But what is the tipping point between a bad day and depression?
The more I'm listening to jokes about it, the more I relate. And...
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curveball8:
Va falloir te compliquer la tâche alors @zely
zely:
ouais c'est sur :P
Montreal is under it's first snow of the year this morning.
Altough I hate shoveling my car and wearing winter clothes, this one is always a little bit special.
Maybe because my daughter is going bat shit crazy about it. It helps. But still, snow brings the good out of people the first time it shows up.
You should try it sometimes.
Did you ever get that feeling where you don't seem to belong anywhere ?
Alone at home, a stranger at work, a ghost to what's left of your family.
Always familiar, but never whole.
I am a ghost. People know my name, but they don't know my shame.
My mind, my life.
And a walk on a daily basis, trying to find a smile or...
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«A great numb feeling washes over me as I let go of the past and look forward to the future... »
- B.E. Ellis, The Rules of Attraction
I've been sick the last few days and, in between fever spikes, I was thinking.
How bad does it suck to be all alone in this day to day routine. Sure, flirting is fun. Dating and occasional...
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