You don't even miss me do you?
- summer's here and the nights are warm
- and the drinks flow
I'll bet you take long walks with him
- and impress all his friends with how pretty you are
Do you ever think about me at all?
- do you care?
Or have i become this embarassing joke?
-" Ewwwww, you fucked an old guy"
I wonder what you say
- how you respond
- do you stick up for me?
- or do you just laugh it off
"I must have been crazy".
I don't know anymore - because I don't know you anymore
- I don't know who you've become
- or what your life is like
I just know that there's no room in it for me
Did you ever really love me at all?
- summer's here and the nights are warm
- and the drinks flow
I'll bet you take long walks with him
- and impress all his friends with how pretty you are
Do you ever think about me at all?
- do you care?
Or have i become this embarassing joke?
-" Ewwwww, you fucked an old guy"
I wonder what you say
- how you respond
- do you stick up for me?
- or do you just laugh it off
"I must have been crazy".
I don't know anymore - because I don't know you anymore
- I don't know who you've become
- or what your life is like
I just know that there's no room in it for me
Did you ever really love me at all?
I know I just have to suck it up, i'm trying. it's ok. just bummed a bit right now but you know, looks like we're in the same boat.
crush came over tonite. he said he would for like an hour but he was too tired and stayed maybe 15 mins. that so did not help. espcially when he was like, "ya i'm leaving for BC tuesday." um I didn't know it was going to be so soon. that did not imropve my mood at all at all. so whatever, i knew it was going to happen, just not so soon.
my best friend comes home tomorrow and he said he's going to be around me so much i'll get sick of him. i hope so i fucking miss him so bad. I don't want to turn to crush for support at this time so i'm happy that the most understanding person who knows how to respond to my shit, my rock, is coming back. we'll do lots of shit together, i hope. or just chill and nothing at all. i don't care. ive seen him maybe three times this year, horrible. gotta make up for lots time.
try not to wonder what this girl is thinking anymore. it doesn't matter. she's not around and you can't be inside her head. i'm sure you affected her life in some way and provided good memories. you are a great person to know. i want to come visit again soon, when possible. i shall give you a call ok? when my freakin phone starts working properly again!!! its not connecting even with sull satellite power. i am so grrr man.
so either maybs expect a call to rant or a call to get some sort of visiting arrangements in place. i don't know exactly whats going on this weekend so i don't know if i could make it out, and i don't get another weekend off for awhile...i have days off during the week but you work so we'll see. it might just have to be like chill for an evening, cuz i know you have work during the week.
anyways, good luck hunnie. and, this prolly shouldnt come from me, but please cheer up. lots of ppl value you who are still around.
nite nite