There are many things in this world that can make your life a living hell, and I don't know about you but LOVE is one of the most hardest things in the world to maintain. Not only do you have to make decisions that include yourself and the other person in your "relationship" but if you have a child it is so much harder. Its not like I am saying that love is something that needs to just be felt, but it needs to be acted upon. Like a well maintained car it needs constant upkeep.
This is why there are so many people out there that are single. They know that it is hard work, and they each all have their reasons for being single and im not knocking that, but since about high school I haven't been single for more than a few weeks.
I am the kind of person that craves attention and love from another, but in return I reciprocate all that I have received and some. sometime going above and beyond what I should just to make a girl happy. Im not sitting here preaching that if you get into a relationship that its like homework or some regular house chore, but if you want to make something work then you have to try and put some sort of effort/say into the relationship you are going to soon be engaging in.
This is just a random rant because I know im not the only one in a relationship that isn't necessarily going through a hard time/rocky road in it, but some things need to be switched up for the good of MY relationship and that change needs to bring not only spark, but just bring a general overall better mood over the relationship.
I am not going to lie I have cheated, will cheat again probably, and will be cheated on. In the past relationships that was what I had to deal with (First her cheating, then me reciprocating). Im not just happy being with someone forever without having that nice side fruit that I know will slate this lust that all of us humans are just pre programmed with, and I really have NO self control over it at all. I guess I am just asking if there is something besides the obvious to change my relationship. (don't talk to other girls like THAT, try harder, try making her feel special, try to be a better friend, try to be involved more.) those things are obvious, but am I too TIRED of being in a relationship and just being lax about it and just nonchalant about my relationship. Or is something wrong with me? I have no idea.
Any feedback and if you would like to share would be awesome too. IDK I think im just hitting a hard time in my life and trying to get through it with no sense of direction.
Thanks for listening. xoxo
