cuddle_junkie

I'm getting better at this updating thing hehe ^_^. Though the news is not that happy...my g/f and I broke up a week ago and I'm still all blah about it...She said it's for the better...If it's for the better why do I feel so lost inside...I feel like a part of me just pushed itself away...Everyone said that they didn't think I really loved her and I was just fooling myself but I know that she meant so much to me and I love her so much...I expected to be ready for this though...I didn't think I was good enough for her and she'd end up breaking up with me but I wasn't ready for it at all..It hurts inside and I haven't been feeling good lately I've been feeling pretty sick...I've started taking my effexor (anti-depressants) again hoping it will help me with this and because I'm just supposed to take them anyways...as for this rant I guess I'll end it now...