Sunday Nov 12, 2006

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i really dislike myself right now (read as: i fucking hate the person that i am right now and have no idea how or when i let myself become an asshole)...

i always want to help my friends, but it recently seems like when i try to help, i tend to do more harm than help... this is a fairly recent development that i i really dislike (at least i hope it's recent). and of course since i'm me (and have issues anyway), it makes me hate me.

also, i broke my hand because i was stupid.

so, if you're reading this, stay away from me. i suck (for a number of reasons).

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  • I am moody as shit

  • I insist that i don't care what people think (both when it's true and when all i want is a complement)

  • I too often gauge most of my worth as a person on how happy my friends are and how happy my behavior makes them

  • I always bitch about not being in a relationship (by always i mean so often that my friends get pissed at me when i talk about it), but don't actually know whether i want to be in a relationship

  • I act like I understand everything and speak authoritatively (and condesendingly at times) about everything even though I'm nowhere near an expert in any field



and those are just the first things that came to mind when i asked myself, "why am i so pissed at myself?"...

bleh. fuck life. on the bright side, dems have control of the oregon house and senate and the US house and senate.



btw, this was meant as a rant, nothing more... if you read it, i'm sorry for wasting your time

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