cubistic

So you know what I hate (to the 0 people who will read this)? I hate being completely socially inept. It sucks. I see this girl that I think is really attractive, and I don't do anything, because I think that anything that I do will be the completely wrong thing to do. So then when (if) I do talk to her, I look like a complete buffoon. Or, I start talking to someone, and start thinking, "Hey, this person is cool; I should get to know them better," and (unless I'm drunk) am completely lost as to what to do from that point forward. *sigh* Ya know, sometimes I hate my life, but then that makes me look around at the (my) world, and I realize that my life is not bad at all... Then I get really confused. Yeah... I don't get life... Maybe that's why I decided to be a physics major. Maybe it's just some weird attempt at understanding life by trying to determine mathematical equations that describe how things are going to happen. I mean hey, my mind works mathematically at least as well as it does linguistically; why not take advantage of that to try to figure things out? Do it in numbers instead of words. But then again, should I really blather this much about nonsense? After all, who is ever going to read this? No one? That's what I thought. I should try to make more friends around here... Or something like that.

Sometimes, I wish that I was a robot.