I can't sleep. That seems to be something I'm saying pretty frequently recently. I would chalk it up to stress, I guess. I can't really complain though, there are people in the world dealing with a lot more stress than I am right now. Let's just call it more stress than I'm used to, a stress of a higher caliber, if you will. The search for a job frustrates me. I'm not sure if it's the fact that there are no jobs to be had, whether I'm not looking hard enough, or whether the people I'm asking to hire me are choosing not to due to the funny hair. If it's the latter, well, Fuck you.
Other than jobs (rather, lack thereof) annoying me, money is annoying me as well. A few days ago, I mistakenly overdrew from my bank account, no big deal, went to the bank and solved that problem, had 2 dollars in the account, go me! After that frightening ordeal, I cancelled every single service that I was a member of that would be charging me any form of money (WoW and Live). With those two expenses gone, I slept easier. However, I go to make myself a sandwich for dinner and I find another ominous looking letter from PNC. I open it to find it is yet ANOTHER overdraw notice, this time for purchases that I'm not sure what they were on September 4th I don't even remember doing anything involving money September 4th. They totaled 23.19, but I owe the bank 128.15. Fuckers. Given I don't have a job, this is distressing. I've read the letter going on 60 times, and it says it'll only gain fees up to 30 dollars on top of that. I know this isn't the end of the world here, just the idea of owing things to people doesn't sit well with me. I also like my legs being extrodinarily unbroken.
What lesson has Chris learned from this? Money is bad.
If I could, I would get by for the rest of my life with bartering. I'd rather trade goods for everything than exchange money for it. If only the rest of the world were hippies.
I believe that I think more clearly at 3:30. I feel like going for a walk, however I dont' feel like putting pants on. There are other things that bother me though, things that I think are a little more important than money.
All of my friends have left for College. I'm sure that it may seem as if I'm exaggerating by using "All of", but I assure you, I'm not. All of my good friends are gone, and while the Burg is home to me, and always will be, I'm left here with acquaintences and friends I'm not too familliar with or haven't really spoken to in a long while. The sensible thing to do, I assume, would be to make new friends. However, one thing that my life thus far has taught me is that I am far from sensible in most situations. The thought crosses my mind now and again now that I'm alone; if all of my friends are gone, then what is the point of staying here? I really have nothing left in this town for me that I dont' have more of somewhere else, or ever will have again. I highly doubt that many of my friends will return to the town. Many of them are just realizing that they miss it, but I doubt they'll come back after they graduate. I put serious thought into leaving, especially on nights like this, at hours when I really should be sleeping. I believe I'm at a point in my life where I could easilly get started anywhere I wanted to. The only advantage I have here is that I have a house to live in and don't have to pay bills. I realize that that is a huge advantage, but I don't think it's really worth it to live in a house with two people you don't even feel comfortable looking at. To think that most people have the good sense to either get confused about everything when they're still in high school or at least wait until they're in their 40's. If I am to have learned anything from the countless hours I've wasted watching Behind the Music on VH1, it's that every single rock story starts out with something like this. That, or a tragic lawn mower accident.
I need sleep, things are making too much sense to me right now.
Other than jobs (rather, lack thereof) annoying me, money is annoying me as well. A few days ago, I mistakenly overdrew from my bank account, no big deal, went to the bank and solved that problem, had 2 dollars in the account, go me! After that frightening ordeal, I cancelled every single service that I was a member of that would be charging me any form of money (WoW and Live). With those two expenses gone, I slept easier. However, I go to make myself a sandwich for dinner and I find another ominous looking letter from PNC. I open it to find it is yet ANOTHER overdraw notice, this time for purchases that I'm not sure what they were on September 4th I don't even remember doing anything involving money September 4th. They totaled 23.19, but I owe the bank 128.15. Fuckers. Given I don't have a job, this is distressing. I've read the letter going on 60 times, and it says it'll only gain fees up to 30 dollars on top of that. I know this isn't the end of the world here, just the idea of owing things to people doesn't sit well with me. I also like my legs being extrodinarily unbroken.
What lesson has Chris learned from this? Money is bad.
If I could, I would get by for the rest of my life with bartering. I'd rather trade goods for everything than exchange money for it. If only the rest of the world were hippies.
I believe that I think more clearly at 3:30. I feel like going for a walk, however I dont' feel like putting pants on. There are other things that bother me though, things that I think are a little more important than money.
All of my friends have left for College. I'm sure that it may seem as if I'm exaggerating by using "All of", but I assure you, I'm not. All of my good friends are gone, and while the Burg is home to me, and always will be, I'm left here with acquaintences and friends I'm not too familliar with or haven't really spoken to in a long while. The sensible thing to do, I assume, would be to make new friends. However, one thing that my life thus far has taught me is that I am far from sensible in most situations. The thought crosses my mind now and again now that I'm alone; if all of my friends are gone, then what is the point of staying here? I really have nothing left in this town for me that I dont' have more of somewhere else, or ever will have again. I highly doubt that many of my friends will return to the town. Many of them are just realizing that they miss it, but I doubt they'll come back after they graduate. I put serious thought into leaving, especially on nights like this, at hours when I really should be sleeping. I believe I'm at a point in my life where I could easilly get started anywhere I wanted to. The only advantage I have here is that I have a house to live in and don't have to pay bills. I realize that that is a huge advantage, but I don't think it's really worth it to live in a house with two people you don't even feel comfortable looking at. To think that most people have the good sense to either get confused about everything when they're still in high school or at least wait until they're in their 40's. If I am to have learned anything from the countless hours I've wasted watching Behind the Music on VH1, it's that every single rock story starts out with something like this. That, or a tragic lawn mower accident.
I need sleep, things are making too much sense to me right now.