Wow, haven't posted since January, and the only person who would've given a shit then I blew off because, well, because. I'm not wired like you. Or you. Or you. I may be wired like you, but I can't be sure. Anyway, neither here nor there as they say.
My future desires in regards to my service to my country are in near constant oscillation. At times I want to study my ass off so when I test for promotion I'm a shoe-in. And I may very well be this year. Other times (most other times, truth be told) I want nothing more than to read anything that isn't promotion related so as to guarantee I don't score well enough to make the cut. The primary reason to make it: lesser people whom I have worked with in my past made that next stripe this year. Perhaps just lesser in my mind, but I'm not about what's good for me in regards to how I go about my service. My first priority is the people, then the mission, then, somewhere down the line, I figure out what I need. Others, not so much. Their main concern is how what they're doing looks for them. I'm not that guy. Primary reason for not making it, aside from earlier retirement and quicker start to the next phase of my life: I'm not the guy for the job. I could do the job, I have no doubt, but I'm not wired to be "the boss". I could explain, but won't. Suffice it to say that I wouldn't thrive going beyond where I am. So, I'll re-read "The Lord of the Rings", every Irvin Welsh, Stephen King, and Anne Rice novel I have in my collection, mayhap read harry Potter for the third time, and not study for promotion.
I've had a decent couple of weekends. I've done a little mountain biking, a little Harley riding, some apartment cleaning, and a lot of reading. And next weekend? Next weekend I get on an airplane and go home to Alaska for two weeks. I'm nearly thrumming I'm so excited to get out of here.
That is all.
My future desires in regards to my service to my country are in near constant oscillation. At times I want to study my ass off so when I test for promotion I'm a shoe-in. And I may very well be this year. Other times (most other times, truth be told) I want nothing more than to read anything that isn't promotion related so as to guarantee I don't score well enough to make the cut. The primary reason to make it: lesser people whom I have worked with in my past made that next stripe this year. Perhaps just lesser in my mind, but I'm not about what's good for me in regards to how I go about my service. My first priority is the people, then the mission, then, somewhere down the line, I figure out what I need. Others, not so much. Their main concern is how what they're doing looks for them. I'm not that guy. Primary reason for not making it, aside from earlier retirement and quicker start to the next phase of my life: I'm not the guy for the job. I could do the job, I have no doubt, but I'm not wired to be "the boss". I could explain, but won't. Suffice it to say that I wouldn't thrive going beyond where I am. So, I'll re-read "The Lord of the Rings", every Irvin Welsh, Stephen King, and Anne Rice novel I have in my collection, mayhap read harry Potter for the third time, and not study for promotion.
I've had a decent couple of weekends. I've done a little mountain biking, a little Harley riding, some apartment cleaning, and a lot of reading. And next weekend? Next weekend I get on an airplane and go home to Alaska for two weeks. I'm nearly thrumming I'm so excited to get out of here.
That is all.
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You are so incredibly sweet for asking, I stopped talking about it, because I thought everyone was annoyed with me mentioning it in every blog. It still hurts. No change. I haven't gone to the doctor. I'm a loser.