cristabelle

sometimes i think i was cut out to do just this:

sit in front of my tv, hardly eating, hardly moving..in essence doing nothing. it reminded me of summer today, with the sun pouring thru my window i could almost pretend it wasn't freezing outside. i was sleeping on and off of nyquil and it kinda ruled. i like the feeling of moving underwater sometimes. i like to take a day off from life. i'm good at it too
i have millions of books i look thru and i write in my journal when i think of any little thing, or a poem or lyric i remember. i doodle portraits on the back of cable bills. go online looking for jobs, appartments whatever. fall into a half sleep to growing pains, beverly hills 90210, or the golden girls.

i should feel somewhat guilty for this lazy self indulgence, or bored at least. but to me, jobs have always gotten in the way of my "life". i like being in my hole with all my books and my obnoxious tv and my wandering mind. and if i had it my way, gallons and gallons of liquid codeine...but i digress