What a day...I started this morning off by watching an episode of Married with Children...It was barley any light outside...I was trying to process the dreams that I just had...Now I can't even remember what they were...Riley and I went for our walk...I could hear thunder in the distance...Great...Riley didn't have to poop or so it seemed...Even greater...It started raining just as we got home...My stress level was at an eight...It was pouring rain out, Riley hadn't pooped, and I had a half hour to get all my stuff done...I was thinking about what a beautiful day September the 11th, 2001 was...And how one year later...The weather in Massachusetts on September the 11th, 2002 was so violent and shitty...I definitely remember thinking it was almost like God was angry that day...Today in 1998, Mark McGwire breaks Roger Marris' 62 home run record for a season, and goes on to hit 70 home runs for the 1998 season...Cheater!! Happy Birthday Chantal Jones!! These punks...are lucky it's not my dog or my mom they killed...They were brought in front of the court despite their lawyers objections, the three accused savages authorities say hacked a Dominos deliveryman to death for a fistful of dollars and a pepperoni pizza tried to hide behind hoodies, scowls and even a bizarre hazmat suit yesterday...That's right three "men" are accused of luring a pizza guy to a vacant building, killing him for a hundred dollars and one of them even ate the pizza that he was trying to deliver...If I was one of the Victim's family members'....I would of pleaded with the Judge to let these young "men" out on bail while they waited for their trial...Your just trying to deliver a Pizza and make a couple of bucks...and three punks terrorize you and kill you...There is no justice that can be delivered to the victim's family...I will say a prayer for them tonight...As much as I bitch that I would love to have a Pizza Pie from UNO's and I can't afford to have something simple like a pizza...Truly everyday I wake up and Riley the dog is there...It is a great day...Each and everyday is what you make out it...You have from blank to who knows many years to make each and everyday memorable or special...
So magically it stopped raining after 15 minutes...I had fed Riley and washed his bowls....We went running down the street where he did another pee pee and then his poopers I was so relieved!! Seriously...there have been days when Riley didn't go poop in the morning and I have had to go to work...I would be at work thinking that he has a belly ache or has to go...I know he won't inside the house...That is negative thinking....Positive thinking is, if he doesn't go in the morning...Then he will go when I get home...Today in 1930, 3M begins marketing Scotch transparent tape...Happy Birthday Heather Thomas!! I drove through a storm 40 times worse then the recent Hurricane...I was two minutes late...I went saw my boss and talked to him about it...He told me not to worry...I haven't been late that many times this year...I had to go sit in another part of the building and do a special task today...Luckily the charming Miss Ortiz was with me...I started to get that buzzing in my chest...I seriously started freaking out about it and started touching my chest all the time...It was on my mind so much that I called my doctor...I am going to try to go on Friday to have my heart and lungs listened to...I noticed at work today that one of my shoes had split in half...That's hot...People probably thinking yup...That's Mike...Today in 1968, The Beatles perform their last live TV performance on the David Frost show...They perform their new hit "Hey Jude"...Happy Birthday Brooke Burke!! I ate my banana today and had an OJ to supplement my lack of Potassium...God I hope there is nothing wrong with me...I have a dog to take care of...I have made so many mistakes in my life...I wish I could of learned without having to made them...I was just thinking positively...Maybe it's just anxiety...I remember when I was taking care of my grandfather...I would have to leave him alone when I was working...He was legally blind with Macular Degeneration...He could take care of himself...He was just so sad of loosing his wife of 50 years, he chose not to take care of himself...He cried everyday...We would be sitting at the kitchen table...I would be reading him the paper...He would just randomly, uncontrollably start sobbing...He would be grabbing his stomach he was crying so hard...Everything I did for him, all the time I spent with him was not enough to take that pain away...When I would go to work...I would randomly start coughing for no rhyme or reason...My doctor had told me the stress and Anxiety of taking care of him and wondering what he was doing, gave me physical symptoms that was a cause of Anxiety...I thought for sure one I would come home and find him dead...I still run into people who knew my grandfather...They tell me what a great job I did...How I have earned my place in Heaven...You should hear the Random things people will say to me about the job I did each and every day with my grandfather...There is an Anakin Skywalker voice inside my head that says, "You did such good job, that he died from Pancreatic Cancer" I should of taken away his cigarettes, whiskey...I tried that for years...He would just find another way to get them...I promised my grandmother who was tied to the bed in a hospice facility because the cancer had made her out of her mind...She said, "why are you crying"...I said, "I am loosing my grammy"...The previous few days all she did was moan and was unresponsive...She made me promise her that I would take care of him...She called me by name...I looked up and she was making eye contact with me...I said, "I will"...She died the next day on September the 11th, 2002...I remember driving my mom up to the Hospice around 6 am...My grandfather had spent the past two days/nights at the hospice...We walked into the room, My grandfather was hugging her dead body...and kissing her forehead...He then sat there for a while holding her hand...He wouldn't leave her...Then when her body was brought to the funeral home...He had to go there and be with her...He wouldn't let go of her, even know that her time on the earth had pasted...That is love...Today in 1504, Michelangelo's David is unveiled in Florence...Happy Birthday Pink!! I was so happy to be home...I gave Riley the dog tickles as he laid on his back with all four feet in the air...He is such a goober...We went for our walk...We walked against the grid locked traffic...So many people smiled seeing me and this big goofy do walking....We met some random girl at CVS who had to pat him...Then we saw one of my neighbors who told us he left a ball for us but someone took it...Tough economy people are stealing dog balls...Today in 1892,The Pledge of Allegiance is first recited...Happy Birthday David Arquette!! Time to hop in the shower...Still have to vacuum, wash Riley's bowls, Sweep downstairs, Make my sandwiches, and take Riley for another walk...I promised myself I would do something I wanted to do tonight...So once I am settled for bed, and Riley is sleeping...I am going to watch Love Actually...Such a great movie!
So magically it stopped raining after 15 minutes...I had fed Riley and washed his bowls....We went running down the street where he did another pee pee and then his poopers I was so relieved!! Seriously...there have been days when Riley didn't go poop in the morning and I have had to go to work...I would be at work thinking that he has a belly ache or has to go...I know he won't inside the house...That is negative thinking....Positive thinking is, if he doesn't go in the morning...Then he will go when I get home...Today in 1930, 3M begins marketing Scotch transparent tape...Happy Birthday Heather Thomas!! I drove through a storm 40 times worse then the recent Hurricane...I was two minutes late...I went saw my boss and talked to him about it...He told me not to worry...I haven't been late that many times this year...I had to go sit in another part of the building and do a special task today...Luckily the charming Miss Ortiz was with me...I started to get that buzzing in my chest...I seriously started freaking out about it and started touching my chest all the time...It was on my mind so much that I called my doctor...I am going to try to go on Friday to have my heart and lungs listened to...I noticed at work today that one of my shoes had split in half...That's hot...People probably thinking yup...That's Mike...Today in 1968, The Beatles perform their last live TV performance on the David Frost show...They perform their new hit "Hey Jude"...Happy Birthday Brooke Burke!! I ate my banana today and had an OJ to supplement my lack of Potassium...God I hope there is nothing wrong with me...I have a dog to take care of...I have made so many mistakes in my life...I wish I could of learned without having to made them...I was just thinking positively...Maybe it's just anxiety...I remember when I was taking care of my grandfather...I would have to leave him alone when I was working...He was legally blind with Macular Degeneration...He could take care of himself...He was just so sad of loosing his wife of 50 years, he chose not to take care of himself...He cried everyday...We would be sitting at the kitchen table...I would be reading him the paper...He would just randomly, uncontrollably start sobbing...He would be grabbing his stomach he was crying so hard...Everything I did for him, all the time I spent with him was not enough to take that pain away...When I would go to work...I would randomly start coughing for no rhyme or reason...My doctor had told me the stress and Anxiety of taking care of him and wondering what he was doing, gave me physical symptoms that was a cause of Anxiety...I thought for sure one I would come home and find him dead...I still run into people who knew my grandfather...They tell me what a great job I did...How I have earned my place in Heaven...You should hear the Random things people will say to me about the job I did each and every day with my grandfather...There is an Anakin Skywalker voice inside my head that says, "You did such good job, that he died from Pancreatic Cancer" I should of taken away his cigarettes, whiskey...I tried that for years...He would just find another way to get them...I promised my grandmother who was tied to the bed in a hospice facility because the cancer had made her out of her mind...She said, "why are you crying"...I said, "I am loosing my grammy"...The previous few days all she did was moan and was unresponsive...She made me promise her that I would take care of him...She called me by name...I looked up and she was making eye contact with me...I said, "I will"...She died the next day on September the 11th, 2002...I remember driving my mom up to the Hospice around 6 am...My grandfather had spent the past two days/nights at the hospice...We walked into the room, My grandfather was hugging her dead body...and kissing her forehead...He then sat there for a while holding her hand...He wouldn't leave her...Then when her body was brought to the funeral home...He had to go there and be with her...He wouldn't let go of her, even know that her time on the earth had pasted...That is love...Today in 1504, Michelangelo's David is unveiled in Florence...Happy Birthday Pink!! I was so happy to be home...I gave Riley the dog tickles as he laid on his back with all four feet in the air...He is such a goober...We went for our walk...We walked against the grid locked traffic...So many people smiled seeing me and this big goofy do walking....We met some random girl at CVS who had to pat him...Then we saw one of my neighbors who told us he left a ball for us but someone took it...Tough economy people are stealing dog balls...Today in 1892,The Pledge of Allegiance is first recited...Happy Birthday David Arquette!! Time to hop in the shower...Still have to vacuum, wash Riley's bowls, Sweep downstairs, Make my sandwiches, and take Riley for another walk...I promised myself I would do something I wanted to do tonight...So once I am settled for bed, and Riley is sleeping...I am going to watch Love Actually...Such a great movie!
dhrti:
Go see a doctor if it's not a muscle spasm.