cretinfamily

and the memories seem to flood in before i can catch my breath
drowning me in the series of hands and street lights
and when i close my eyes i'm drowning again
i'd like to draw a blank just for once
just to find some relief from this avalanche of shame
that comes in with smells of vomit and shit
shaking my body down to the core
shaking everything and everyone i've ever believed in
take me home
take me into the house you remember
show me your family pictures
tell me about the vacations you took
keep filling in the silence left by me with more of these
beautiful words
i just want to forget for a while
i just want to be you for a while