Journal time!!
It's apparant that I've been doing too much at once,(too much research, studying, etc.) I need to focus more. I'll be slowing down in my studies, but hopefully increasing my results.
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Thele-mental
low, what was carried in?
slow, a sickness born within
molded from blood ov the brain,
caste from Gods, obviously insane.
Diminished Star,
reversal ov "ain soph aur"
his lost...
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It's apparant that I've been doing too much at once,(too much research, studying, etc.) I need to focus more. I'll be slowing down in my studies, but hopefully increasing my results.
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Thele-mental
low, what was carried in?
slow, a sickness born within
molded from blood ov the brain,
caste from Gods, obviously insane.
Diminished Star,
reversal ov "ain soph aur"
his lost...
Read More
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abyssia:
poop
Today was an interesting day. I went to the ghetto to attend a lecture on "Dying Gods and avatars".. Imagine that!!, the collapse of metaphysics in the slums of N. philly! Quite an appropriate venue, I think.....
another session (downtrodden)
Sits across from me, guarded by her desk
Invisible boundry separating the "sick" from all the rest.
tales are told, the ashtray fills,
dreams of FUCK, sluts and pills.
went too far, want too much.
still held back, and never got enough.
loathe myself, hate me whole.
devoid of life, despite my soul.
I could learn, i'd feel new,
if I could...
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Sits across from me, guarded by her desk
Invisible boundry separating the "sick" from all the rest.
tales are told, the ashtray fills,
dreams of FUCK, sluts and pills.
went too far, want too much.
still held back, and never got enough.
loathe myself, hate me whole.
devoid of life, despite my soul.
I could learn, i'd feel new,
if I could...
Read More
abyssia:
I had an intake with a doc once who ended up being my shrink for a few years.... At the end, as she walked me to the door, she put her arm around my shoulder as if to comfort me and said, "you're going to need a lot of therapy." 
~mer
~mer
there's this cool thing i can do. it's called reading. for all you genuises out there, it's when you decipher the organization of letters on a page and......o-kay, sorry, that wasn't necessary.
here's what i learn-ded today:
USELESS KNOWLEDGE episode 1
William S. Burroughs- shot and killed his wife joan while trying to reenact the story of William Tell. (Oops) died 1997 of heart attack...
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here's what i learn-ded today:
USELESS KNOWLEDGE episode 1
William S. Burroughs- shot and killed his wife joan while trying to reenact the story of William Tell. (Oops) died 1997 of heart attack...
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Long frustrating day. I awoke(unfortunately) again to hopes of a day full of pleasurable human interaction. Instead, I experienced needy(lazy), ignorant, and ungrateful creatures that somehow found their way into my life. I seem to be a magnet for people who smoke cigarettes without EVER buying any. Why should they? It's ONLY a cigarette, right? Except, it's only a cigarette to each of the ten...
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odette:
you know, if you just quit smoking you wouldnt have this problem 
abyssia:
my pithy reply was sucked into the vortex of "Timmy" 
there's new pics of me,standing next to my new friend,who curiously looks alot like these smilies. VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
crestfallen:
Hello ladies and gents...
I just read a book, that could be an excellent read for both guys and gals. It's called "SHE COMES FIRST" A Thinking Man's Guide to Pleasuring A Woman. It's written by Ian Kerner, Ph.D.
This is an interesting and very informative look into the female anatomy. He basically, well, not basically but very specifically explains how the whole alpha-male ideal about BIG PENIS=BIG ORGASM is bullshit, and that, just cause guys say things like, "man, I fucked the SHIT out of her!" does'nt mean that she was actually pleased. (although, there certainly are some who ARE pleased with just penetration, and no oral sex. Are these women the exception, or the rule?) I sure as hell don't know. Anyone with any thoughts on the subject should check this book out. I'd be interested to know what anyone thinks as well.
[Edited on Feb 01, 2006 4:42PM]
I just read a book, that could be an excellent read for both guys and gals. It's called "SHE COMES FIRST" A Thinking Man's Guide to Pleasuring A Woman. It's written by Ian Kerner, Ph.D.
This is an interesting and very informative look into the female anatomy. He basically, well, not basically but very specifically explains how the whole alpha-male ideal about BIG PENIS=BIG ORGASM is bullshit, and that, just cause guys say things like, "man, I fucked the SHIT out of her!" does'nt mean that she was actually pleased. (although, there certainly are some who ARE pleased with just penetration, and no oral sex. Are these women the exception, or the rule?) I sure as hell don't know. Anyone with any thoughts on the subject should check this book out. I'd be interested to know what anyone thinks as well.
[Edited on Feb 01, 2006 4:42PM]
crestfallen:
another session (downtrodden)
Sits across from me, guarded by her desk
Invisible boundry separating the "sick" from all the rest.
tales are told, the ashtray fills,
dreams of FUCK, sluts and pills.
went too far, want too much.
still held back, and never got enough.
loathe myself, hate me whole.
devoid of life, despite my soul.
I could learn, i'd feel new,
if I could see--from under your shoe...
Sits across from me, guarded by her desk
Invisible boundry separating the "sick" from all the rest.
tales are told, the ashtray fills,
dreams of FUCK, sluts and pills.
went too far, want too much.
still held back, and never got enough.
loathe myself, hate me whole.
devoid of life, despite my soul.
I could learn, i'd feel new,
if I could see--from under your shoe...
crestfallen:
Pics from my camera phone!
crestfallen:
pics
Hey everyone! I just joined, so I don't have any pics yet. Soon, i'll post some pics of the signing that some of the girls came to philly for.
abyssia:
Hey - nice to meet you. What are you studying? If you send me a pic you would like to post on your profile, I will size it properly for you - otherwise they can look stretched or squished... Don't want that! 
Welcome!
Welcome!
and uh, now my ear kind of itches and tingles and all around feels strange....