crazywhitegirl

I just now looked and realized that when I was getting my tat, ex SG Annie came into the shop. I thought she looked a wee familiar but it didn't click. Shane asked her about something suicide girls and she was bitching about how shady and creepy the staff are and blah blah blah. Always drama and whatever. Anywho, I remembered her name and looked it up and was like HA that was her. Yay I feel special I saw my first ever SG in real life. She said my tat was gorgeous too.

Anywho, tonight was fun actually. Decided to stop fucking crying and get out of the damn apartment. Talked to Tara and ended up going up there to hang out. I asked Ben if he wanted to come eat with us and her boy for his birthday but he said no. Then when I was about to leave he decided to come with me, which was nice. I hate being without him when I'm so depressed and emo. I feel stupid and clingy but he makes me feel safe and ok <3 So we went up to Round Rock and went to eat at this place called Logan's I think. It was very messy. Peanut shells everywhere!! Seriously!!! I kept saying "Ew it's really dirty in here " but it was fun to throw peanut shells around. I forced myself to eat a roll and a little salad and like a piece of shrimp. It's weird lately my depression has been affecting my appetite. That is VERY STRANGE to me because I've ALWAYS had an appetite and can eat like mad. I just felt full but I ate as much as I could because I knew I needed to....

anyways, we went back to her place and sat around and talked and laughed about the cunt puncher tattoo and random crazy shit. And the TV wasn't on. The TV here is on CONSTANTLY. When Ben wakes up he turns it on, I have to turn it off if he leaves. I fucking hate TV!! I'm pretty positive now it's been a major factor in my emoness. All the annoying stupid fucking commercials. All the depressing news about how shitty the world is and how retarded the president and most political fucktards are...

*rants* Anywho, I am back to my chipper self again for now. Hopefully it will last. I'm glad when I get back in my good moods I can look back and tell myself what not to do and what to do to keep my moods up. blah blah blah.

My tattoo is so fucking pretty! The colors just amaze me. I'm so glad I went last night.... err thursday night to get it done. It hurts like 8 bitches on a bitch boat and it's SUPER bruised. More than the pictures from yesterday afternoon. It looks weird and like someone beat me with a baseball bat kinda. Hmmph. Stupid baby skin

Luis Black is so fucking hilarious. Oh god... so funny.... if you haven't seen his HBO special, I think it's called Back in Black... YOU HAVE TO! I COMMAND YOU!!!