crazywhitegirl

Gah. I barely have enough money in my checking account to make next months rent. Actually I don't have enough. I had to transfer the last of my money from my ING savings account. FUCK! I shouldn't have bought myself an iPod cuz I was doing so well in school and rewarding myself. How stupid. Blarg. At least I payed my credit card in full last month. I need to stop buying everything Now with Christmas coming up and I'm fucking broke. Ugh. I should have gotten that damn job at Apple if school hadn't interferred. This sucks sucks sucks. Then I'll be in New Mexico for almost 2 weeks in December, if I get a job no one is gonna let me take that much time off especially being new! I could just try to get some random job then just quit in a month. That seems like such a waste.

Ugh I've been trying to get a job for a long time. My grandma sent me some money today which is AWESOME. Thank god for grandmas! <3 I'll be glad to see her and my mom over Christmas. I was talking to my mom how worried I was about money, as always, and she said she'd loan me money just concentrate on school and such. I hate feeling like a worthless daughter that can't handle myself on my own I've lived on my own for over a year now and well she pays for my health and car insurance but I've payed my rent and bills and all that. Blarg. Stupid money.

I need to get some new pants because I'm too fat for all of mine now. *sigh*