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crazygrrl

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Wednesday Mar 28, 2007

Mar 28, 2007
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I've been doing some deep thinking today. I am still struggling with forgiving myself for things I've done. What has happened in the past sticks with me for a long time. I replay the episodes over in my head, knowing that I can't change the past but regretting that they turned out the way they did (whether or not it was my doing). Stupid nonsense things. Major life things. About a dozen or so situations or moments that I feel some kind of unresolved-ness about.

How does one forgive them selves in order to forget and find the love that should be there instead?

Maybe I need a little self-indulgent weekend to re-commit myself to my beliefs and make a plan for my future happiness.
terranwanderer:
Do you also have a lot of anxiety over the future? I've been thinking about this issue a lot lately, and I've come to think that we introverts spend so much time inside our own minds that the lines between past, present, and future begin to blur, and it makes past failures or embarrassments much more immediate and painful. For me, it also works with fear of future problems--fear of failing or letting somebody down, fear of doing something wrong, that kind of thing.

I'm not Buddhist, but I've been reading some of Brad Warner's stuff on this sight lately, and I've rather enjoyed the Buddhist view (or at least Brad's view) on reality of the moment--the idea of becoming in touch with the here and now and the reality of it, as opposed with the past or future which really doesn't exist for us except in our own minds. Interesting stuff.
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