cozpud

So let us see what matthew has to say today

fri---safety day --- i didnt do shit all day...played some hacky sack

fri---getting drunk at my boy joshuas house i wish i would have someone to snuggle with ,,,yeah i know gay

i hate THIS type of rain

i hate how this song is skipping....

why do i spend so much tim eon the internet....is it because all the people i know in real life all just turned in to bastards in teh short time of six months......or is it because i am a bastard now....

Needle in the hay.

i hate that picture <--------

i just shaved off my sideburns, i have never done that, i look like a freak now.

Why am i only 22, it seems like all the nice people are all older and disenfranchised, and a little bitter like me.
But NO, matts just the young kid who dont know shit about life. FUCK EM THOUGH>

I got a cell phone,

i cant wait for this booze tongiht....

No inhibitions when i am around nice people, i can actually talk and not have to worry about someone missunderstanding me and mocking me. Just because they are to stupid o know what the fuck i am talking about.

FASHION
fuck

today- grey/pink pink floyd shirt
black/pink adio shoes/shoelaces
Grey levis cords

tommrow
levis jean shorts
green norma jean shirt
grean combat cap

ususally

blue western shirt, with white roses
blue express girls pants
converse


where the fuck did i learn to dress.......i wish i could dress like i used to ..........jsut whatever wasw there,,,,,but now for some reason, i have to dress nice or in uniform well not in uniform...BUT uniform...get me.

so today i had the shakes real bad, ont the shakes, but twitches, usually happens when i get frustrated sometimes i stutter alot when that happens.....but i didnt feel frustrated....so it probably means i am goin nuts again, so i will have hide myself away from everyone tongiht if some one brings shit up

" i know someday you'll have a beautiful life,i know someday,youll be a star in somebody elses sky, but why,why, why cant it be, cant it be me"



fuck

""Night Train"

Goodbye to me and you.
Goodbye to the life we knew.
One last long embrace.
Let go and walk on through.

I'm leaving everything behind for a peace that I can't find.
The ghosts that roam this house
like winter air right through our souls.
And it feels like dying.
It just feels like time to go.

Goin down south to dream another dream.
Maybe check out Memphis, Tennessee.
Take the night train and an extra pair of jeans.
Can't think of anything else I really need.
And all my experiences ride with me.

This town is dead to me.
And I can't stop chasing my dreams.
I love you more than anything,
but what you want I could never be.
I love you more than anything,
but only alone can we both be free.

YEAH i know i am posting lyrics and that is cheese...but fuck it..that song fucking kills me more than elliot smith ever will......................................................


thats the shit i am talking about that makes me go nutssoo.....and quesodillas
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