I'm finally back to who I was before Carol! 2 fucking years since then, but I'm OK now. Took being fucked-up over someone else, but now I can be the good little slut-boy I was before.
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Not doing as well as I thought.
DOES JANET UNDERSTAND HOW FUCKING CRAZY SHE MAKES ME!?!?!
Just as I got used to the thought of her and Jerry, they decide not to persue their relationship further. Between her two jobs she comes in without saying a word, gets changed, comes out dressed really nice (to nice to be just stocking at the commisary) and smelling great. I ask her about it and she says she's meeting someone, all giddy, too.
I swear, if I was a weaker person, I'd kill myself, but I detest that kind of weakness, so noone has to worry. I just destroy stuff instead. I just made a friend take my guitar before I smashed it.
Root of the problem: I try not to do things if I think I'll reget it later.
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BTW this will be my last post for a little over a month. The computer is getting packed up tomorrow.
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Learming to turn my jeaelousy into a "protective big brother" kind of thing.
She has no idea what she let pass her by.
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Not doing as well as I thought.
DOES JANET UNDERSTAND HOW FUCKING CRAZY SHE MAKES ME!?!?!
Just as I got used to the thought of her and Jerry, they decide not to persue their relationship further. Between her two jobs she comes in without saying a word, gets changed, comes out dressed really nice (to nice to be just stocking at the commisary) and smelling great. I ask her about it and she says she's meeting someone, all giddy, too.
I swear, if I was a weaker person, I'd kill myself, but I detest that kind of weakness, so noone has to worry. I just destroy stuff instead. I just made a friend take my guitar before I smashed it.
Root of the problem: I try not to do things if I think I'll reget it later.
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BTW this will be my last post for a little over a month. The computer is getting packed up tomorrow.
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Learming to turn my jeaelousy into a "protective big brother" kind of thing.
She has no idea what she let pass her by.
well bro, have fun elsewere, and my advice?
read this: Musashi by Eiji Yoshikawa
... TRUST me