My boyfriend and I are in the very slow process of breaking up. We're on a "break" at the moment, but ultimately, I think we'll just end it. It's heartbreaking to think that my son will no longer be seeing his father everyday and vice versa. They have such an amazing relationship. Matt's a wonderful father, he really is. He's even a fantastic boyfriend. He's just not what I want anymore. I feel fucking terrible. We're going to couple's councilling but I don't know if it will fix anything, because I don't want it to be fixed. If I could fix my feelings... If I could have passion for him again, I would do it in a second. I want us to be a family but I've just been so unhappy with him. We're always fighting.
I feel like in doing this I'm being so fucking mean to Leith. I'm being a bad mother. God, I don't know...
I feel like in doing this I'm being so fucking mean to Leith. I'm being a bad mother. God, I don't know...
YOU ARE NOT BEING A BAD MOTHER! You know how in airplanes they always tell you that if the oxygen masks fall, you have to put yours on first before attending to your child? Same thing. You're no use to Leith if you're unhappy. Think how much worse it would be to make him grow up with an unhappy mother in a relationship she doesn't want. That would sour his connection with you and his dad. At this age it's tough to screw them up, really! He'll have a long, long time to develop his relationship with his dad so don't worry. I know how happy he makes you and don't think you're capable of being a bad mother, as long as you are happy.
Talk to you elsewhere.
xx