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I didn't go to Chicago. The boy broke up with me because "he can't go three months without seeing me again." Which I get. That's fine, but to do it after telling ME he needs more of a commitment and to step up? And the fact that he called me three times earlier that day going on about how excited he was to see me makes me think he cheated on me and that's really why he broke up with me. He fed me bullshit lines like "I love you and I'll always love you. I'll be waiting for you." Waiting for me? Why? You had me now. Why wait for me in the future? And what is the point of telling someone you love them after breaking up with them? Just break up with someone and be done with it. No I love you's needed there. Anyway, I'm actually okay with it. I don't have to worry about him getting randomly mad at me anymore and all of his high maintenance. I actully feel...a bit of relief. He was way too moody and I need someone a little more stable.

Oh by the way, he broke up with me the day before I was supposed to go out there. I was going to send him a nasty text message that said things like "Get over the fact your mommy didn't hug you enough as a child and learn how to treat people" yadda yadda yadda. It was basically five pages of "You're a worthless human being" but I didn't. I held back and I was proud of myself for doing so because I was so angry at first. But you know what? For the first time in a few months I feel....happy.

So I went to Alabama instead on the 27 and spent New years with a good friend of mine. Her family was in town so we spent a lot of time with them. She took me to a gay club called Club Imagination and they had a drag show. It was awesome, although I'm a little upset that the drag queens wore heels better than me. She snuck me shots all night. New Years Eve I got drunk and texted one of my guy friends like "Sex please? Kthanks" Embarrassing much? But I had a good laugh about it the next day.

Last Saturday night I went out with the guy I texted. I've actually known him since I was really young. We went to high school together and he lived around the block from me. We went to a friend's show and I drank on the way plus more when I got there. I got fondled by a stripper and everyone tried to talk me out of getting breast implants. I flashed the crowd and I think I made out with the sripper too, but I don't remember. I never said I was classy.

That guy and I went back to his place and had sex. I had actually hooked up with him a couple weeks earlier. Actually the day after the boy broke up with me. The sex was AWESOME. Seriously I haven't had sex like that in a really long time. Now he wants to date, but I don't really want to be tied down to one person right now. I just got out of that and I'm not ready to do it again. I'm liking the no-strings attached deal right now so that's how I will stay for a while.

I hung out with Lainey a lot over break. I love that girl. She's so much fun. I saw AlissaBrunelli, Frolic, and Radeo also. Those girls were cracking me up! I started classes today. I feel good about this semester. Friday I'm going back up to Cincinnati because on Sunday I am seeing AC/DC. I am so excited! My grandparents bought my mom and I tickets for Christmas. Hopefully I can hang out with hook-up guy again because let's face it...I'm a borderline nympho.

How was everyone's holidays??