cosette

I got a call around 6 AM this morning from my boyfriend. He told he VOLUNTEERED to go to Iraq and he could be leaving in 2-3 weeks. Instant heart break. The unit he's in was recently reactivated. Because of that he may not get to go fight. He feels if he doesn't go then all his training was for nothing. He told me there is a chance they won't let him go. I could hang on to that little thread of hope, but if they do send him it will destroy me.

I think I went into shock or something when he told me. I wasn't sure what to feel. I felt bad for not crying when he told me. So I made myself cry and that made me feel worse. Then I couldn't stop. He wasn't supposed to leave until next year, if they were going over there. I got so used to the idea that we still had more time. Blech. I think I may soon.

I'm not really sure how I should be feeling right now. I'm scared. Other than that I'm not really sure how I feel or what I think. Am I freaking out too much? I mean..it's not a for sure thing he will be leaving. So maybe I am overreacting. However, I don't know about you guys, but when I hear about the chance of my boyfriend leaving for war in 2-3 weeks I don't take it well.

Well, here's to hoping he doesn't go over. For those of you that haven't checked out Wildy's set GO DO SO!!! What the hell are you waiting for? She's a hottie! I hope everyone is having a good weekend.