I want a woman I can call a bitch, who will promptly slap me, call me an asshole, and then kiss me full on the mouth.
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I live inside a black stone ball.
I see no golden reflections.
My only comfort silence.
My only sustinance emptyness.
Echos of the outside world taunt and mock me.
Here a snippet, there a flash.
Still nothing penitrates the darkeness.
All I see are illusions.
All I touch is empty.
I rage against my prison.
FLY FROM ME!
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I long to feel pleasure,
Yet...
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I see no golden reflections.
My only comfort silence.
My only sustinance emptyness.
Echos of the outside world taunt and mock me.
Here a snippet, there a flash.
Still nothing penitrates the darkeness.
All I see are illusions.
All I touch is empty.
I rage against my prison.
FLY FROM ME!
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I long to feel pleasure,
Yet...
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yumchen:
Good question....
Let me know if you figure anything out.
Let me know if you figure anything out.
I confuse myself.
This is such a fucked up world...
I just need to get a little bit fucked to learn to live in it...
I met with my counselor today, It didn't help me much.
She gave me a bunch of good ideas.
But, unfortunately I got stuck on some stuff .
I'm hoping the doctor is going to get me on some meds that help me...
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I just need to get a little bit fucked to learn to live in it...
I met with my counselor today, It didn't help me much.
She gave me a bunch of good ideas.
But, unfortunately I got stuck on some stuff .
I'm hoping the doctor is going to get me on some meds that help me...
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obsidious:
For me, no counselor's advice has ever been truly useful.
Today things are looking better.
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gweggums:
always good to hear 
scorpio_:
You were blacklisted on my friend's list the other day...what's up with that?
Something smells fishy.
So the newest news with me is that i'm nuts.
Reality is something that doesn't mean much to me.
I'm working on getting my head back in "Normal" space.
I really don't remember much of the past few weeks. just snippets.
I'm sure apologies are in order in some places.
If I freaked ya out, know that I am truly sorry.
in the meantime I'll...
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Reality is something that doesn't mean much to me.
I'm working on getting my head back in "Normal" space.
I really don't remember much of the past few weeks. just snippets.
I'm sure apologies are in order in some places.
If I freaked ya out, know that I am truly sorry.
in the meantime I'll...
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corvus:
Stuff I threw together.
Bubbly happy joyus entry.... 
O sweet death's kiss where art thou.
Here I sit smoking a cig, ruminating on all the bullshit I've been fed my whole life.
God, Bah
Heaven, Pshaw!
All we've got is hell and we're living in it!
I spent all of my time growing up trying to please a mythological god.
in some ways i think I still do.
I feel like I'm trapped in prison with the only hope of...
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God, Bah
Heaven, Pshaw!
All we've got is hell and we're living in it!
I spent all of my time growing up trying to please a mythological god.
in some ways i think I still do.
I feel like I'm trapped in prison with the only hope of...
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gweggums:
Sorry to hear that.....I know how overwhelming those feelings can be( I went through 12 years of Catholic schooling) and have been chronically depressed since I was 12....hold in there....something(one) will come along and bring out the happy inside.....
kengineer:
A Good Boy wouldn't think those terrible thoughts. God will punish you for thinking them.
Oh, wait . . .
I mean, sorry to hear you are having such a rough time of it. Were I to send you some advice, I might suggest you try a heavy dose of romantic comedy DVDs and an honest conversation with your doctor. All I can say is, I have enjoyed your company in the past and I hold out hope that you can hold your own company in similar high regard in the future.
Wow. Suddenly I'm Captain Big Words.
I won't bother praying for you. But you are in my thoughts, which is the kengineer functional equivalent.
Oh, wait . . .
I mean, sorry to hear you are having such a rough time of it. Were I to send you some advice, I might suggest you try a heavy dose of romantic comedy DVDs and an honest conversation with your doctor. All I can say is, I have enjoyed your company in the past and I hold out hope that you can hold your own company in similar high regard in the future.
Wow. Suddenly I'm Captain Big Words.
I won't bother praying for you. But you are in my thoughts, which is the kengineer functional equivalent.
I Drempt I got a new toy.
It was called a jackintheapple.
It looked like an ordinary golden apple, but when you tried to bite it out popped a clown with a sledgehammer.
it kinda reminded me of the trojan horse.
It was called a jackintheapple.
It looked like an ordinary golden apple, but when you tried to bite it out popped a clown with a sledgehammer.
it kinda reminded me of the trojan horse.
me "Did you just call me a bitch??"
you "Sure did BITCH, what you gunna do about it"
me "THIS..." CCERRRRSSLLAAPPP
you "whoa that was hot"
me " your an asshole"
Commence hot kissing with sexy results
OOh ya, the reason I came here anyhow...
Happy Bday!! Little Missster bday pants!!!!!!!!!!!!