Just realized I kept saying sisco in the last one... the CISCO rep took us out. We also deal with SISCO though. It gets confusing as shit when people are talking in meetings. I feel like an idiot saying, "wait... with a C or an S?" Not that it really matters.
Anyway, I've been having weird freaking dreams about my childhood... remembering things I try not to think about lately. Things like my best friend being raped by her neighbor, and her parents not believing her... and sending her to an asylumn for troubled kids. My first girlfriend, Luara... getting sent there because she got caught smoking by her parents. My 2 of my best friends committing suicide on newyears at the stroke of midnight. My former band mate being shot and killed by cops because they thought he had a gun when he didn't. Getting carjacked and my girlfriend refusing to drive while I was bleeding from the face... then watching a needle come at my eye for 29 stitches right below my left eye.... all sorts of other things but im going to stop there so I don't have to explain too many of the events.
I don't know why I'm remembering all these things suddenly this week. Yet I feel totaly stress-free when I wake up. I'm remembering a lot of good things also, but mostly the fucked up things from my childhood. I dunno... feels weird to me to wake up from nightmares that I lived through and feel a strange sense of relief... its weird. Lots of other weird stuff, ex girlfriend who is engaged calling me to ask if i'd fly out and sleep with her so she could call the wedding off... I dunno. This is just a weird week. Not a bad week, just a really really fucking weird one.
... must be the full moon.
"My life is perfect because I accept it as it is." - Lenny Kravitz
Anyway, I've been having weird freaking dreams about my childhood... remembering things I try not to think about lately. Things like my best friend being raped by her neighbor, and her parents not believing her... and sending her to an asylumn for troubled kids. My first girlfriend, Luara... getting sent there because she got caught smoking by her parents. My 2 of my best friends committing suicide on newyears at the stroke of midnight. My former band mate being shot and killed by cops because they thought he had a gun when he didn't. Getting carjacked and my girlfriend refusing to drive while I was bleeding from the face... then watching a needle come at my eye for 29 stitches right below my left eye.... all sorts of other things but im going to stop there so I don't have to explain too many of the events.
I don't know why I'm remembering all these things suddenly this week. Yet I feel totaly stress-free when I wake up. I'm remembering a lot of good things also, but mostly the fucked up things from my childhood. I dunno... feels weird to me to wake up from nightmares that I lived through and feel a strange sense of relief... its weird. Lots of other weird stuff, ex girlfriend who is engaged calling me to ask if i'd fly out and sleep with her so she could call the wedding off... I dunno. This is just a weird week. Not a bad week, just a really really fucking weird one.
... must be the full moon.
"My life is perfect because I accept it as it is." - Lenny Kravitz