im still depressed and loney 
im thinkin about getting rid of suicide girls cause i am hardly on it anymore?
i wrote a bit about what friendship is to me and i thought i would sahe it with you. i know in some parts it kinda goe sin different places but thats how it works in my mind. start talking about one thing and end up somewhere else and sometimes come back to the original subject. but here it is let me know what you think if you care to leave a comment.
i am surrounded by friends that are there for me if i ever need to talk. i know they will be there for me if something ever goes wrong. i know they will help me out as much as they can if i really need a favor. i have friends that are great to me and make me feel comfortable when i am around. but yet, i still feel so alone. i know people say they love me and i believe them but its not the same kind of love as someone holding you and telling you that everything will be ok. someone that will just sit there and let you say everything you need without any interuptions and when you finish ask if you need anything else. to wake up next to someone and smile first thing in the morning knowing that you love that person with all that you can give. knowing that you have found someone special and no one else can compare to them ever. i know i probably sound like a girl right now but for me its all the "small" things that make me happy. im glad i have great friends that at least check in to make sure im still alive and that im still "here". whenever i get sad and lonely i like to be by myself until i need to have some human contact. then my friends make me drag my ass outside and make sure i have a good time. i know i say it all the time but i truely do love my friends because if i didnt have great friends i dont know where i would be right now. but for now they fill the void of the person i will someday give my everything to. i have yet to find that special someone but one day that person will show up and i just hope that i take action when i get that special feeling instead of waiting for them to make a move like in the past. im sure i have passed up some great times but i have come out of my shell of hiding in the back light of people that have stronger personalities. i am glad for that. i have finally started to make a name for myself not the guy in the back or this persons friend. i now have a better unstanding of myself because of my friends. everyone has helped me in a different way. some people know it and some dont. but everyone in my life has shaped me in some way. i just hope i can leave a lasting memory in their minds as they have done to me.
im thinkin about getting rid of suicide girls cause i am hardly on it anymore?
i wrote a bit about what friendship is to me and i thought i would sahe it with you. i know in some parts it kinda goe sin different places but thats how it works in my mind. start talking about one thing and end up somewhere else and sometimes come back to the original subject. but here it is let me know what you think if you care to leave a comment.
i am surrounded by friends that are there for me if i ever need to talk. i know they will be there for me if something ever goes wrong. i know they will help me out as much as they can if i really need a favor. i have friends that are great to me and make me feel comfortable when i am around. but yet, i still feel so alone. i know people say they love me and i believe them but its not the same kind of love as someone holding you and telling you that everything will be ok. someone that will just sit there and let you say everything you need without any interuptions and when you finish ask if you need anything else. to wake up next to someone and smile first thing in the morning knowing that you love that person with all that you can give. knowing that you have found someone special and no one else can compare to them ever. i know i probably sound like a girl right now but for me its all the "small" things that make me happy. im glad i have great friends that at least check in to make sure im still alive and that im still "here". whenever i get sad and lonely i like to be by myself until i need to have some human contact. then my friends make me drag my ass outside and make sure i have a good time. i know i say it all the time but i truely do love my friends because if i didnt have great friends i dont know where i would be right now. but for now they fill the void of the person i will someday give my everything to. i have yet to find that special someone but one day that person will show up and i just hope that i take action when i get that special feeling instead of waiting for them to make a move like in the past. im sure i have passed up some great times but i have come out of my shell of hiding in the back light of people that have stronger personalities. i am glad for that. i have finally started to make a name for myself not the guy in the back or this persons friend. i now have a better unstanding of myself because of my friends. everyone has helped me in a different way. some people know it and some dont. but everyone in my life has shaped me in some way. i just hope i can leave a lasting memory in their minds as they have done to me.
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i hope you're doing better and maybe i'll have to drive to Suffolk to give you a hug. I like the new picture.