so all weekend i was talking to the ex and whatnot. we have been kind of talking about maybe getting back together. its been going pretty good. well tonight i stop by blockbuster to see if anything good was in and within 5 seconds of walking in the door i hear her voice. so then i start walking around and see her. i look up at her and see that she is with another guy. now i dont know if anything is going on with them or if they are friends or what. all i know is that she is with another guy. so i avoid her and skip a whole wall of movies. well then i find a few and go to check out. well she decides to say something to me and the conversation is short and kept to what i was getting. so as im driving home this really starts to bother me. and it really shouldnt bother me. i guess it is because i was ready to open myself up to her finally and then i see that. so right now i feel a bit foolish to think that i was doing everything that i dont normally do because when im with her im happy. well screw that im going back to being cold hearted again and losing all thoughts of her again. this is going to take me a day at least to do. i hate this feeling. it almost feels like i was being used but i know i wasnt but thats kind of the way i feel. its to hard to explain right now but im aggrivated i know that.
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rosie_baby:
That sucks, did she see you walk in? It's kind of hard not to get caught up with someone. Then something like that happens, it just hurts.
bekka_suicide:
Ya... Sleeping alone just reminds me how alone I really am... I just keep telling myself that one day Ill find my Jack Skellington and He'll hold me all night long<333