Friday Feb 04, 2011

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Corinney is.. hurt and confused. about a bunch of things that i can't really talk about on this public blog.

I'm going to be 23 this year. I'm not worried. I still feel very young. However, my worry is this: at what age do you think, well i've expeirienced a good amount of different things, now I can settle down?

Will i feel the same at 25? at 28? I am worried my plans for the immediate future will drastically change, and i'll be saying to myself at 25 - god, what an idiot i was for *this* or for *that*....

is it possible to experience all that life has to offer if you make the feelings that you feel at 23 permanent?

I feel like from around 14, I've made a whole bunch of mistakes after mistakes and i'm pretty scarred from them. is that what we do? when do we realise that we're no longer making mistakes, that we've got it pretty good? So, feeling that I have made a lot of mistakes and got a whole bunch of experience between 14 and 23, am I wise enough to make monumental descisions?

am i still a child? how did you feel between 23 and then 28, or 30, or 35?

i guess that my worry really is that life is just a consectutive series of mistakes, some longer than others, some more devastating, that we learn from and then launch into something else that will in the end turn out to be another mistake.

where is the wisdom that adulthood brings? I feel like i've felt enough hurt for a few years, I dont want to be feeling more, really.
wulagaru:
the shitty truth as Ive found it to be is that there isnt an age where you get to feel sure about your decisions. but you also cant let that stop you from making them. if you do that you'll never move from where you are. as scary as it is and as much as it sucks you have to keep doing what you think is best for you will it always work out .. probly not but it wont always be a mistake either.
mrbaker:
Making mistakes is a part of life, a really hard one (trust me, I know), but its so very important to not look at the mistakes, but to look at the lesson. You can use mistakes as a way to mature, grow, and better yourself. I know how you feel. I felt very young and foolish at 23, and I still feel very foolish now. Furthermore, wisdom or trust in one's self isn't at all a destination, but a journey. Show me the most self-assured "with it" person, and I guarantee they feel just like you do now (every now and again). Anyone who says otherwise is either lying or disconnected from the human condition.
Don't let fear of future mistakes rule you. Yes, they may happen, but wonderful, beautiful, amazing things are on the horizon as well. Seize them!

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