Says I been member since a long time ago when I don't remember owning a computer. Oh well just getting started now.
Change of routine. Journal to pixel. Grocery list to paper.
It's been a good winter. I like the sun, grit, and hardness of everything in Tucson. It's nice to have a tan and the sun makes you happy. Rocks are more cosmic than trees. Trees are caught mingling in the affairs and scales of humans. The desert preserves and pereveres from the past to the stars.
The plan is to return, stay in the PNW, not move, become a city persona, nonlaborer, and one who maintains relations. But already I wonder about returning sometime another winter in the desert. The experience engages me. The sun raises my spirit, coworkers raise my stature, and my rock competence fluffs my esteem. On the downside it kinda seems like a rut of lonliness and isolation.
That's my thought or where I want them to be 3 more tours to go as I pack for the first tomorrow. If I hold up physically and want to the choice is mine. Is it better to escape it all and do as I please or confront my limits and compromise to acceptance of the community of the world while finding my place in it.
I'm not usually so full of shit. I think I'm just thinking about the fact that I think I really want a girlfriend but don't want to compromise anything, wondering if I could even put myself in a situation to have the choice and wondering if any of this has anything to do with me on this site.
Maybe a better entry. Family visited last 4 days. Felt kind of a life stall and obligation. Now gotta go back to work tomorrow and pack realizing that time is moving fast. I'm trying to keep a perspective, have a goal and look to the future.
Thanks
Change of routine. Journal to pixel. Grocery list to paper.
It's been a good winter. I like the sun, grit, and hardness of everything in Tucson. It's nice to have a tan and the sun makes you happy. Rocks are more cosmic than trees. Trees are caught mingling in the affairs and scales of humans. The desert preserves and pereveres from the past to the stars.
The plan is to return, stay in the PNW, not move, become a city persona, nonlaborer, and one who maintains relations. But already I wonder about returning sometime another winter in the desert. The experience engages me. The sun raises my spirit, coworkers raise my stature, and my rock competence fluffs my esteem. On the downside it kinda seems like a rut of lonliness and isolation.
That's my thought or where I want them to be 3 more tours to go as I pack for the first tomorrow. If I hold up physically and want to the choice is mine. Is it better to escape it all and do as I please or confront my limits and compromise to acceptance of the community of the world while finding my place in it.
I'm not usually so full of shit. I think I'm just thinking about the fact that I think I really want a girlfriend but don't want to compromise anything, wondering if I could even put myself in a situation to have the choice and wondering if any of this has anything to do with me on this site.
Maybe a better entry. Family visited last 4 days. Felt kind of a life stall and obligation. Now gotta go back to work tomorrow and pack realizing that time is moving fast. I'm trying to keep a perspective, have a goal and look to the future.
Thanks