* I have begun to really want that orchid tattoo I have been thinking of...and maybe something inspired by the art of Miro:
I realise that I have been going on about getting this tattoo for a long time. But being one of those people who got some hasty & fucking awful tattoos when they were young (and having spent $$$ getting them covered/fixed), I would much rather spend years deliberating over my choices now. Hats off to my good friend xTLBx who waited until he was in his mid 20s before getting his first big, beautiful, well thought out and well executed tattoo. That's the way to do it.
* I am doing alright with the OCD. It is far from easy, but a challenge can be a good thing. I want to work hard and really feel like I've achieved something.
* I currently weigh 64 kg. Around 60 kg would be ideal.
* I don't want to waste any more time on insecurities, procrastination...or bad anything.
* I would like to go to Cuba someday. Soon.
* I am a little lonely. I don't mind admitting this. Alot of my friends have moved interstate or are starting families, so I need to make some new friends.
* I have to deal with the fact that there are some things about myself that can't be fixed or improved (or only improved so much). I am always going to have stretch marks. There is really nothing that can be done about the scar on my leg. I have to concentrate on what I do like and not bash myself up over the not-so-hot bits.
Fuck it sounds like I've been reading self-help books
I haven't. I swear.
Eat these! I just did! You won't regret it!
I realise that I have been going on about getting this tattoo for a long time. But being one of those people who got some hasty & fucking awful tattoos when they were young (and having spent $$$ getting them covered/fixed), I would much rather spend years deliberating over my choices now. Hats off to my good friend xTLBx who waited until he was in his mid 20s before getting his first big, beautiful, well thought out and well executed tattoo. That's the way to do it.
* I am doing alright with the OCD. It is far from easy, but a challenge can be a good thing. I want to work hard and really feel like I've achieved something.
* I currently weigh 64 kg. Around 60 kg would be ideal.
* I don't want to waste any more time on insecurities, procrastination...or bad anything.
* I would like to go to Cuba someday. Soon.
* I am a little lonely. I don't mind admitting this. Alot of my friends have moved interstate or are starting families, so I need to make some new friends.
* I have to deal with the fact that there are some things about myself that can't be fixed or improved (or only improved so much). I am always going to have stretch marks. There is really nothing that can be done about the scar on my leg. I have to concentrate on what I do like and not bash myself up over the not-so-hot bits.
Fuck it sounds like I've been reading self-help books
I haven't. I swear.
Eat these! I just did! You won't regret it!
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I would like to go to Cuba, I love that the architecture is stuck in the 50's there, I also love the music from Cuba.
I feel like I have been reading self help books lately also....
I know what my problem is, and that my self esteem and self worth are shot to hell, so hence I feel like I do let people down at the moment.
The problem will be rectified as I slowly start to grow again and feel some self importance through love or whatever else may come along.
Life is good and I vented...sometimes that all it takes is to release a little steam. I am on holidays from work at the moment and have some things I am so looking forward to and spending time with Platypuz in Sydney next week is one.
I also got a call from work and they have promoted me while I am on hols. I have been moved up 2 runs on the ladder which is great...better money etc, so we shall see how that all goes in 3 weeks time when I get back.
And that is more than my 2c worth
Thanks again for the support