copper_crescendo

And Then. Shit.

Yup. Broke down. Smooched the Married Woman. Feeling guilty. Feeling really guilty.

Also feeling disappointment - not as much with myself that I finally gave in - moreover just being hit with the reality stick. It was just a big fantasy with an amazing (unavailable) person. It can't work out, it never does, it won't work out; a part of me feels like I've just been broken up with or that I need to break up with her. That feeling of an approaching end.

I am not proud of this. Not cool.

And I'm sorry too. I should not have let it come to this. Shit...