ON/OFF
Had a rerun. Same chronic smoking, same hand shaking, same reasoning. Different person. Different person but so much alike.
And now, sitting at the end of a burn, I feel let down again. Again, one has chosen to end a really great relationship because they can't handle it. They can't have a relationship.
I don't understand this. I can only accept it, knowing that it's the truth. But I won't fight. I won't try to convince someone or change someone. I can't and won't do that for them.
So I let it go - it's all I can do. But gawd how awfully painful it stings to even remember how much I love her.
First question on my checklist for meeting people now is "Are you emotionally available?" Too many people just aren't, and I'm not capable of having a relationship that doesn't involve my emotions.
Had a rerun. Same chronic smoking, same hand shaking, same reasoning. Different person. Different person but so much alike.
And now, sitting at the end of a burn, I feel let down again. Again, one has chosen to end a really great relationship because they can't handle it. They can't have a relationship.
I don't understand this. I can only accept it, knowing that it's the truth. But I won't fight. I won't try to convince someone or change someone. I can't and won't do that for them.
So I let it go - it's all I can do. But gawd how awfully painful it stings to even remember how much I love her.
First question on my checklist for meeting people now is "Are you emotionally available?" Too many people just aren't, and I'm not capable of having a relationship that doesn't involve my emotions.