What a week.
Events of note:
Halloween. Took the niece out to excrete candy from strangers. Made very much fun because my niece is just the most awesome kid ever and just can't help being so cute all the time.
Busy work week. A big project was supposed to go live today, but the client is still giving content, so now it's up to us programmers to haul ass this weekend and get everything up like it's supposed to be asap so they don't look bad. For once though, it's not bothering me, I have nothing to do with their lateness, it's their problem not mine, so I'll just do my best and that's all. I'll sleep better at night too.
Met some fantastic people, hung out with some absolutely delightful people. Have started to think more seriously about one individual whom I get along with ridiculously well, but I'm hesitant to jump into anything when I could be moving in a few months to a new country, and when dating is still so foreign to me. I know my patterns and behaviours in terms of relationships, and I want to change a lot of those, so I'm just holding back for now. Just a little bit.. Also met someone who just makes me feel unworthy which is totally contributing to my slightly less than buoyant mood of the moment. Hopefully we can hang out again and she'll spill her water or punch in the wrong debit card number so she seems human.
My father wants me to move in with him when he leaves my mom. This is not a good idea. I thought when I'd alert him that I simply cannot do that that he'd understand, or at least try to act like he understands, but he (unconsciously I'm sure) put a guilt trip on me. I do actually feel really bad because I could do it for him. It would be unhealthy for me, and I actually really like where I'm living now, and I don't want to be in the middle of all the shenanigans that are going to explode when it all goes down. Again, not my issue... but it still just doesn't feel like I thought it would.
This is one of those days I just want to go to sleep because tomorrow will be better.
Events of note:
Halloween. Took the niece out to excrete candy from strangers. Made very much fun because my niece is just the most awesome kid ever and just can't help being so cute all the time.
Busy work week. A big project was supposed to go live today, but the client is still giving content, so now it's up to us programmers to haul ass this weekend and get everything up like it's supposed to be asap so they don't look bad. For once though, it's not bothering me, I have nothing to do with their lateness, it's their problem not mine, so I'll just do my best and that's all. I'll sleep better at night too.
Met some fantastic people, hung out with some absolutely delightful people. Have started to think more seriously about one individual whom I get along with ridiculously well, but I'm hesitant to jump into anything when I could be moving in a few months to a new country, and when dating is still so foreign to me. I know my patterns and behaviours in terms of relationships, and I want to change a lot of those, so I'm just holding back for now. Just a little bit.. Also met someone who just makes me feel unworthy which is totally contributing to my slightly less than buoyant mood of the moment. Hopefully we can hang out again and she'll spill her water or punch in the wrong debit card number so she seems human.
My father wants me to move in with him when he leaves my mom. This is not a good idea. I thought when I'd alert him that I simply cannot do that that he'd understand, or at least try to act like he understands, but he (unconsciously I'm sure) put a guilt trip on me. I do actually feel really bad because I could do it for him. It would be unhealthy for me, and I actually really like where I'm living now, and I don't want to be in the middle of all the shenanigans that are going to explode when it all goes down. Again, not my issue... but it still just doesn't feel like I thought it would.
This is one of those days I just want to go to sleep because tomorrow will be better.