I'd like to say I had a bad case of insomnia last week because that sounds so tragic, but it'd really only be slightly true. I didn't sleep because I chose not to, not because I couldn't. I couldn't sleep only one day out of 5, I chose not to sleep for the other 4. Now I feel like I had a 10 day week...
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aspasia:
Wow. I hate insomnia. It makes me crazy if it goes on from longer than a few days.
Two things on my Mind of Late:
1) How do people (esp emplyers) evaluate one's worth - I'm strickly talking about dollars per hour here. I heard a few weeks ago that one of my clients is disappointed with me and so I've been busting my ass, putting in 65 hour weeks to try to make the client happy. I've done some really really good...
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1) How do people (esp emplyers) evaluate one's worth - I'm strickly talking about dollars per hour here. I heard a few weeks ago that one of my clients is disappointed with me and so I've been busting my ass, putting in 65 hour weeks to try to make the client happy. I've done some really really good...
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I've taken up a new hobby.
Singing in the car to righteous Nick Cave and Black Tape for a Blue Girl.
More bellowing than singing per say, but I guess you can't win em all.
Singing in the car to righteous Nick Cave and Black Tape for a Blue Girl.
More bellowing than singing per say, but I guess you can't win em all.
These are the times we make Noises.
I'm struggling to understand and move on from this. But it's not easy. All I think I'm really doing is not thinking about it. Is that what people do? Is that what we do to avoid these feelings of loss? I don't want to...
What I want to do is call her, and say how I understand that...
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I'm struggling to understand and move on from this. But it's not easy. All I think I'm really doing is not thinking about it. Is that what people do? Is that what we do to avoid these feelings of loss? I don't want to...
What I want to do is call her, and say how I understand that...
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ON/OFF
Had a rerun. Same chronic smoking, same hand shaking, same reasoning. Different person. Different person but so much alike.
And now, sitting at the end of a burn, I feel let down again. Again, one has chosen to end a really great relationship because they can't handle it. They can't have a relationship.
I don't understand this. I can only accept it, knowing that...
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Had a rerun. Same chronic smoking, same hand shaking, same reasoning. Different person. Different person but so much alike.
And now, sitting at the end of a burn, I feel let down again. Again, one has chosen to end a really great relationship because they can't handle it. They can't have a relationship.
I don't understand this. I can only accept it, knowing that...
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Feeling the color of a deep bruise.
So, I'm now officially been tossed aside. I don't know what happened, things were great, there was nothing that I sensed that would cause this. But now it's been a week since we last talked, I've called 4 times, and I'm really really down about how this ends.
A little history lesson inserted here now - she almost...
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So, I'm now officially been tossed aside. I don't know what happened, things were great, there was nothing that I sensed that would cause this. But now it's been a week since we last talked, I've called 4 times, and I'm really really down about how this ends.
A little history lesson inserted here now - she almost...
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Week (Weak) Endings
Tonight, then before.
Hung out with the best friend today. She was unusually open and talkative about emotional issues troubling her, and we had a great breakfast. She's such an awesome person and I love her to bits because of it, I just wish she had better taste in men. Like maybe, don't date assholes. Is that a plea for her to...
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Tonight, then before.
Hung out with the best friend today. She was unusually open and talkative about emotional issues troubling her, and we had a great breakfast. She's such an awesome person and I love her to bits because of it, I just wish she had better taste in men. Like maybe, don't date assholes. Is that a plea for her to...
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Nick Cave. All I can say to your No More Shall We Part album is my gawd. Best album I've heard in a long time. I love it.
Now I've gotta dig up my copy of And the Ass Saw the Angel and give it a re-read.
It's been a little while that I've been this excited by music.
Now I've gotta dig up my copy of And the Ass Saw the Angel and give it a re-read.
It's been a little while that I've been this excited by music.
Reflections
2005 was a great year. By any standard - personal growth, song writing, gadget acquiring, job opportunities, it was a winner. 2005 was hands down the best year of my life.
The biggest thing I learnt this year regards reltaionships. I had dated this one girl for 5 years and thought we were going to get married. We broke up right at the ass...
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2005 was a great year. By any standard - personal growth, song writing, gadget acquiring, job opportunities, it was a winner. 2005 was hands down the best year of my life.
The biggest thing I learnt this year regards reltaionships. I had dated this one girl for 5 years and thought we were going to get married. We broke up right at the ass...
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Happenings:
Talked with my dad today and he mentioned that my mom is sick, but they only live together not talk together, so he knows she's taking pills but has no idea what for, and knows that sometimes she can hardly walk... and then has the gall to claim that perhaps she's making it up. Yes. Sometimes he just says the worst possible thing.
Talking...
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Talked with my dad today and he mentioned that my mom is sick, but they only live together not talk together, so he knows she's taking pills but has no idea what for, and knows that sometimes she can hardly walk... and then has the gall to claim that perhaps she's making it up. Yes. Sometimes he just says the worst possible thing.
Talking...
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Christmas was great!
Had one of the nicest family get-togethers with my immediate family Christmas Eve. Now usually any sort of Swick family get together consists of a lot of bickering, especially between my mom and dad, and everyone else trying to politely ignore, hoping it'll stop, and getting generally uncomfortable. This year however we were all prepared for it and had all agreed that...
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Had one of the nicest family get-togethers with my immediate family Christmas Eve. Now usually any sort of Swick family get together consists of a lot of bickering, especially between my mom and dad, and everyone else trying to politely ignore, hoping it'll stop, and getting generally uncomfortable. This year however we were all prepared for it and had all agreed that...
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I'm too impatient.
Waiting beside the phone for her to call and let me know that the 75% of her that wants to continue seeing me has hushed the remaining 25% into non-existence. I can feel my mind polluting itself with tragedies, all too familiar, the ones that I struggle to keep out of my head. I have an exceptionally awful imagination - everything I...
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Waiting beside the phone for her to call and let me know that the 75% of her that wants to continue seeing me has hushed the remaining 25% into non-existence. I can feel my mind polluting itself with tragedies, all too familiar, the ones that I struggle to keep out of my head. I have an exceptionally awful imagination - everything I...
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