I haven't updated all month. What's my deal anyway?
I guiltily admit here that I've no lifted a finger to find a job in about a week. Meanwhile, I continue to tread water at GIE hoping that they'll not call me out and withdraw their generous grace period. I feel kind of fucked right now.
My life is sort of a mess at the moment....
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I guiltily admit here that I've no lifted a finger to find a job in about a week. Meanwhile, I continue to tread water at GIE hoping that they'll not call me out and withdraw their generous grace period. I feel kind of fucked right now.
My life is sort of a mess at the moment....
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For my birthday I've received:
Speed Racer DVD Vol. 2
Picnic at Hanging Rock (DeAnne)
Godzilla box set
Spider-man '67-72 cartoon DVD (52 episodes!) (Beth!)
Thunderbirds Vol. 2 (Mom)
Suicide Girls book -- better than I thought (DeAnne)
Ginger Snaps Back (Mom)
All I need now is the Munsters Season 1 and the Dawn of the Dead remake and life will be complete. The meaning...
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Speed Racer DVD Vol. 2
Picnic at Hanging Rock (DeAnne)
Godzilla box set
Spider-man '67-72 cartoon DVD (52 episodes!) (Beth!)
Thunderbirds Vol. 2 (Mom)
Suicide Girls book -- better than I thought (DeAnne)
Ginger Snaps Back (Mom)
All I need now is the Munsters Season 1 and the Dawn of the Dead remake and life will be complete. The meaning...
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Oh my. September 9th? For real? It's been awhile I guess. Lots has happened. I'm quitting my job for one. I'm looking for a new one currently and as soon as I secure something with a good enough benefits package to handle the weighty burden of my multiple medications and "pre-existing condition" I'm gonna get the rock outta' Dodge. I'm fed up and I'm 30...
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Ah - Cheap Trick is the perfect remedy for a shitty day. But lo- there be big changes on the horizon mateys. I've been given a way out of my awful job. I talked to the general manager and because of my loyalty to the company (heh) for the past seven years - yes, seven - I am being give a safety net if I...
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anarchick:
HAAAAPPY BIRTHDAY!
tempestuous:
Happy Birthday! How does 30 feel? I'll be joining you there soon.
I miss smoking. I miss cigarettes and weed. My evenings feel so different when I'm not high. I'm getting used to it though, which is kind of a relief. I don't miss caffeine so much and it's hard to miss alcohol because of what it does to my stomach - which has trained me to steer clear lately. But I really miss smoking and resign...
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tempestuous:
I was an east-sider, but am now a west-sider. It was so much simpler when I was just Canadian, hehe.
tempestuous:
Just out of curiosity -- who's your shrink?
It's been an incredibly strange week. I haven't spent this much time online since I graduated from OU and was living at home. I took the entire week off work - recovery, man. I'm amazed with how supportive and understanding everyone has been there. Despite a whole week of free time, I haven't really done too much with it. I worked on two paintings but...
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bettiebangup:
Have a good weekend. The only day I know I am doing sometime next week is Wednesday. I work at the Beachland that night, other than that I'm fair game. 
anarchick:
I'll check out those Daniel Clowes comics you recomended, I just need some money now. I can't wait to read them! David Boring was the best comic (graphic novel, ahem) I had read in my life.
I'd say lay off the weed just for a little bit between the med change. It never helps things. Blegh.
I'd say lay off the weed just for a little bit between the med change. It never helps things. Blegh.
Here's the first journal entry I wrote (a week ago today actually) when I was locked up in the psychiatric ward at Southwest Hospital -- a completely separate facility. My tone is still hopeful you'll notice. That will change soon enough. I'm keeping this on file to remind myself to pretend to act okay when I'm not okay to prevent being sent to a place...
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tempestuous:
My favorite storyline of Six Feet Under (can't remember the season number -- maybe the second?) was Brenda's compulsive infidelity. There's something about her state of mind that I could relate to.
How was Garden State? That's first on my list of movies to see when I next have some free time.
Eighties porn -- I like the amateur stuff. There's something really sexy about natural tits (especially the small ones) and girls who wear white scrunchy socks and LA Gear sneakers when they fuck. I've been a fan of Ed Powers movies for a long, long time -- just got his first ever Dirty Debs dvd in the mail today. Yay me!
How was Garden State? That's first on my list of movies to see when I next have some free time.
Eighties porn -- I like the amateur stuff. There's something really sexy about natural tits (especially the small ones) and girls who wear white scrunchy socks and LA Gear sneakers when they fuck. I've been a fan of Ed Powers movies for a long, long time -- just got his first ever Dirty Debs dvd in the mail today. Yay me!
bettiebangup:
I didn't either until I read about it in this week's Free Times. Damn I stoked too. I've never seen them before, but sure as hell going to be there in October.
I'm hooked to Six Feet Under. Every Sunday my mama tapes it for me. And this season was getting so good, I'm pissed there are only a couple more episodes left.
We should get together some time soon, hon. Damn it's been too long.
I'm hooked to Six Feet Under. Every Sunday my mama tapes it for me. And this season was getting so good, I'm pissed there are only a couple more episodes left.
We should get together some time soon, hon. Damn it's been too long.
CARRIE (2002)
About as unnecessary as they come - this made-for-network-television adaption of the Steven King novel is supposed to follow the book more closely than the DePalma classic, but it doesn't. Angela Bettis is a solid choice in the title role but there is no direction to support her performance. Toothless and cringe-inducing, especially when it's making pop culture references that guarantee it's shelf...
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About as unnecessary as they come - this made-for-network-television adaption of the Steven King novel is supposed to follow the book more closely than the DePalma classic, but it doesn't. Angela Bettis is a solid choice in the title role but there is no direction to support her performance. Toothless and cringe-inducing, especially when it's making pop culture references that guarantee it's shelf...
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anarchick:
I really liked Kids, but I'm a sucker for shock realism-factor.
I haven't read anything other than Clowe's Ghost world and David Boring. It's hard to come across them in my area, recommend any other good titles I can perhaps get from amazon?
I haven't read anything other than Clowe's Ghost world and David Boring. It's hard to come across them in my area, recommend any other good titles I can perhaps get from amazon?
bettiebangup:
Glad you're okay, sweetie. Thanks, I'm still figuring it out and kind of p-o'ed it didn't come with any Microsoft programs such as Word and junk like that, but since I still have the back up saved of that stuff from my old 'puter it isn't too bad. Damn that Windows XP! 
Yeah, we should sometime......I did get myself a spaning new digi cam too we can use.
Yeah, we should sometime......I did get myself a spaning new digi cam too we can use.Jen and Scrappy are probably on their way over so this will be short but um...so I spent most of this week locked away in a psychiatric ward. They wouldn't let me out until a doctor discharged me. I had no control at all. Second worst experience of my life. More traumatizing than helpful and if last night's nightmares are any indication - this is...
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bettiebangup:
Whoa hon, what has been going on with you 
Hope all is okay
Hope all is okay So, yeah...I totally quit smoking. I can't believe it. I mean, I know I said it before but, I'm going on two weeks now. I think it's for good. I spent my entire 20s out of breath. I'm pretty sickly as it is. I mean, I don't care if I die young (I'm free tomorrow actually) but why make it needlessly painful? Cancer aside, it's...
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anarchick:
Wooo! Good for you for quitting smoking. Cancer is a bad bad thing, it makes me feel sad I've seen too many good people suffer from it, so you'd better not start again 
Or I'll kill you the fast way
Nice reviews by the way!
I've seen too many good people suffer from it, so you'd better not start again Or I'll kill you the fast way
Nice reviews by the way!
I think I've fallen back in love with Elissa...for all the fucking good it will do me. I dare not tell her sister. I dare not tell her. I look like some severe damaged goods to anyone right now. Not exactly prime grade boyfriend material...not that I want to be a boyfriend. I want to be wanted. "...feelin' all alone, not a friend, kinda' feel...
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burstandbloom:
never saw either of those movies
never been in love
cant help
sorry
never been in love
cant help
sorry
anarchick:
I agree with you on the sex sometimes being more complicated than it's worth. It's only when I'm with a very special person that sex becomes worth the hassel for me. I'm certainly not one of those fuck 'em on the first date kinda girls. Blegh.
Ack, the lithium doesn't sound so great. I'm on a combination of Citalopram and Zyprexa at the moment, which makes me sound like either a bipolar or scitzophrenic, to which I'm neither... weird. I'd say the shakes is better than manic episodes though.
Take care you
Ack, the lithium doesn't sound so great. I'm on a combination of Citalopram and Zyprexa at the moment, which makes me sound like either a bipolar or scitzophrenic, to which I'm neither... weird. I'd say the shakes is better than manic episodes though.
Take care you
Night of the Exes was not screaming for a sequel, yet here I am in that familiar no-man's land between sex and friendship. The ability to maintain cordial and in some cases very close relationships with exgirlfriends is a dubious blessing.
Beth has damn near become abstract conceptually. We email frequently every day from work (sooo 2001) - over the top flirting. Shameful shameful flirting....
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Beth has damn near become abstract conceptually. We email frequently every day from work (sooo 2001) - over the top flirting. Shameful shameful flirting....
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anarchick:
Love is such a complex thing...
Thanks for the concern for my problems hun, it's nice to know people care out there!
Thanks for the concern for my problems hun, it's nice to know people care out there!
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