Well, the weekend is here. It wasn't terriblely stressful this week.
One thing did bring a note of unhappiness though. Recently I've been spending time with a girl who I think is quite cool. Not exactly my type, but crazy smart and not bad on the eyes either. On wednesday I did something I don't think I've ever (and I mean EVER) done.......I stood her up. When the moment came to ring her about what we were to do, I froze. As much as I think I've greatly developed over the years, my previous three relationships have had such a brutal effect on my heart and self esteem. Why you ask? Well, I could go on for days and days about that, but I suspect you'll just be content with symptom. Needless to say the cause needs some attention, and I'm reserved to look into that before that hellish time of the year called xmas arrives. So I did to someone what I almost hate more than anything when it happens to me. Shortly after however, I did explain my position and point out that it had little to do with her. It's not clear what the future holds, though it's cliche......one day at a time.
This weekend I hope to do some more painting, go to that show that Rubysparkle is part of, go to the art opening at NEWTINY, get a bit of work done, and maybe finish some of the renovations on my place which could use some attention.
And I think I'm going to buy a Utilikilt this weekend. I've been eyeing them for so long now, and I think it's time. The one I want is the chocolate brown workman.
https://secure.utilikilts.com/catalog-workman-index.htm
It would seem a trip to Seattle is in my future.
One thing did bring a note of unhappiness though. Recently I've been spending time with a girl who I think is quite cool. Not exactly my type, but crazy smart and not bad on the eyes either. On wednesday I did something I don't think I've ever (and I mean EVER) done.......I stood her up. When the moment came to ring her about what we were to do, I froze. As much as I think I've greatly developed over the years, my previous three relationships have had such a brutal effect on my heart and self esteem. Why you ask? Well, I could go on for days and days about that, but I suspect you'll just be content with symptom. Needless to say the cause needs some attention, and I'm reserved to look into that before that hellish time of the year called xmas arrives. So I did to someone what I almost hate more than anything when it happens to me. Shortly after however, I did explain my position and point out that it had little to do with her. It's not clear what the future holds, though it's cliche......one day at a time.
This weekend I hope to do some more painting, go to that show that Rubysparkle is part of, go to the art opening at NEWTINY, get a bit of work done, and maybe finish some of the renovations on my place which could use some attention.
And I think I'm going to buy a Utilikilt this weekend. I've been eyeing them for so long now, and I think it's time. The one I want is the chocolate brown workman.
https://secure.utilikilts.com/catalog-workman-index.htm
It would seem a trip to Seattle is in my future.
I feel ya with your new girl problem. I'm disgustingly gun shy when it comes to hanging with girls i might actually grow to like. I'm over the pointless hookups, but i've been beat up to bad by that thing called love.
My current situation is actually a blessing. This new girl is a bit freaked out that she likes hanging with me so much, and so am i. Both of us are really jaded about that, but since i'm going to south america for the winter, we can both just let go of the game and totally dig each other while i'm here. It's nice having an out, but its ridiculous that i need one.
That's cool that you guys can communicate well enough to hash out those kinds of developments. Like you said Day by day.........