I honestly don't know how to start this, but I figured I'd talk about what happened to me this 4/20! what an intense day. For the past two years that I've lived in the bay, I have attended the magical 420 Fest on Hippie Hill in San Francisco. It is full of all types of people young and old. Kind of this semi-organized gathering of masses lol. First year I was a tourist, it was fun though. I learned to not get caught in the sea of people! It's a park with open fields, get off the damn path lol.
The second year I went, I brought my Yummy Stuff edibles and set up camp. Being apart of the action was so much fun and my best friend Courtney came from Utah to help me. Such a great time.
This year, I had to work first. I couldn't be there early enough to fully set up. So I found a chill spot and set there with my blanket and had a small area near a DJ. Watched people dancing and laughing... great energy. But what happens when you gather all these people who are high as fuck might I add. Some more than simple marijuana (they always ruin it for us). It wasn't long after the magic time of 4:20 that someone's generator popped. To those of us that have been to festivals, know this is common and can clearly tell the difference of that sound and that of a gun. It was a surge of people. THOUSANDS of people rushed from the hill. I could see them running towards me. I knew if I stood up, I'd get knocked down and could seriously get injured. So I gathered everything I could and tucked up like a turtle.
Some people jumped over me, but most weren't even looking. I don't know how many times I was kicked, but I knew not to stand up. The rush eventually stopped. I just sat there in awe, while I watched people walk back to their spots. Talking about what happened. It's funny how fast false rumors start. I was sitting right there, NOBODY got shot.
I feel so bad, I thought I'd get home in a decent time. I contacted @asteria so we could try to head to Sac to see the burlesque show. We both wanted to go, and I sold out of my Yummy Stuff within the first hour I was there. One huge detail though: this is the first time I've drove in a car in over 6 months!! I was involved in a minor accident back in November that totaled my only vehicle. I now get really bad anxiety in a car. My phone was dead, but I thought I knew my way home. Guess not. I got completely lost. I swear I covered all of San Francisco. So I smoked a joint to help my anxiety and calm me down. When I realized how utterly LOST I was, I started to have a panic attack. Full blown, high as shit in the middle of traffic turning circles for hours. I don't even know how many times I was crying and yelling to myself.
I had so many awesome people message me. I felt so bad for Asteria. She just wanted to go to the show. I am so sorry honey. @raenie was so supportive and helpful. My head got kicked pretty good and I was really dizzy and she really talked to me. I just have to say how lucky I am. Followed by my love @gaiah checking on me periodically over the last couple of days. I have made such amazing friends in you women. I honestly love you and can't wait to see you next weekend with CDO <3
Thank you to the SG community for giving me a place to share my stuff. With people that can relate, understand, and lift you up in that time of need.
@lyxzen @rambo
