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I am curious for any input that any of you may have on what I am about to say. I found out the other day that my ex-wife potentially has breast cancer. She found several lumps and is seeing doctors regarding them. For a little backstory, we had an amicable separation there was no fighting none of the normal as seen in movies ugliness. We have remained friends but not close. Every once in awhile we will have a drink or have lunch and catch up before parting ways again and usually not speaking for several weeks. This is a relationship that i see as normal as my parents divorced but stayed friends for 41 years until my dad passed away in 2010. I was with my wife for 12 years, she had 2 children when i met her which i raised as their father was not around. When she dropped this news on me the other day about potentially having breast cancer it was in the pretext that she needed a favor. She wanted to hope for the best but plan for the worse so she had met with a lawyer about drawing up a will, and thats apparently where i came in. She wanted me to be the beneficiary of her life insurance because I was the only person she trusted to make sure that money was used to set up her kids with what they needed and not take advantage of having access to it, she definitely doesnt trust her own family. We discussed everything at length during our lunch in a very business like manner which is unusual because when we meet it is usually very casual and fun catching up. A little later that day she called me to clear something up and the conversation took a turn i didnt expect. She started talking about doctors etc and somehow got onto how she was writing out a bucket list and how silly that was. She started crying and said she is not ready to die, i comforted her best i could and she quickly got off the phone. Heres where the question comes in, because I have experienced an unexpected emotional response to all of this, sadness that i didnt expect considering what the relationship has become, so asking anyone who reads this to comment if you were in this situation. if you had an ex (wife/husband or not) that came to you with this news what emotional response would you expect? do you think it would effect you strongly as it has me? i am surprised by how it has effected me would you be? give me your opinions on any part of it! thanks for listening =)