cookiemonstr

I have always been a bit on the outside of everything. I was an athlete in high school and college but i didn't fit the "jock persona". I am a bit of a "nerd" used to read comic books a lot, I watch Doctor Who amongst many other things that fit in this category. I am an intellectual who dumbs myself down quite often for God knows what reason. I have been a jack of all trades, master of none my whole life and as a result I always seemed to be on the outside looking in, never fitting with one group or another. I was too cool for the geeks to nerdy for the popular kids always just slightly out of line with everything. The trend continues in adulthood because as much as we like to think we have grown we are always cliquey. My tastes in life haven't helped me. I am a big guy but i prefer a petite woman, I ride a motorcycle but don't want to be around the type of people who ride more often than not. I am in my 39th year and still always feel like I am looking through the window while everyone else is inside eating. My likes are so varying and non specific that joining "groups" doesn't really work. I know I am not the only person in the world that feels like this and yet I have never met another like me although I would love to!! I am even thinking of starting a group here on SG but i don't know what i would call it, any ideas?? I have joined several groups here because I fit kinda into all of them but fully into none so I give it a try. I wouldn't say I am the square peg trying to fit into a round hole because I do not think I am a complete outsider, I am more of a hexagonal peg trying to fit into the round hole, close but no cigar. In fact this is the first blog I have ever written, and I think I chose the right place to do it. I have been a fan of SG for years and a member off and on for several years and I have always kind of felt if I am going to meet people like myself, the funny, smart, kinda weird, comic book, gamer, athlete, biker, foodie, movie buff type of people that i have a better chance of meeting them here than anywhere. This is one of very few places I feel like I might fit in so I have decided that I will be as active as I can be here and hopefully I can meet friends, new family and maybe even someone that is the hexagonal hole for my hexagonal peg....and no I didn't mean that to sound as dirty as it did but its a happy coincidence. Thanks for reading =p