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i just wasted like two hours browsing journals/groups/message boards.

i dont know if its actually *wasted* time or not, but it feels like it.

why is it that unless i'm either making something, working, or running life errands (eating, sleeping, showering, paying bills, getting food) i feel like i'm wasting time?

i can hardly even enjoy a movie lately, because i feel like i should be doing something else.

this attitude has killed my social life.

i need to let go.

but, i also have alot of work to do.

i was reminiscing to my youth, like ages 9-13, when you had your own brain but hadnt learned how to properly destroy it yet...

i could spend hours watching tv or playing nintendo, and not paying any mind to it. time was so eternal then.

ignorance is bliss.