Dude, I am financially unsound at the moment in a big fucking way. Scared is a good way to put it. Hopefully I can get the bank to drop all the charges, and unemployment deposits those 2 checks they owe me soon. I am downright frightened.
My guy gets back today. I got to talk to him last night, and he had a great time at his show. He said that there were 5 or 6 people that recognized him from his findafreek site, which was good/worrisome because most of those "hey, aren't you..." comments come from mesmerized little goth girls in the prime of their lives...haha. I trust him though. He also apparently went to a pretty crazy afterparty. The funny thing is that for a moment I felt a tinge of worry and "oh gods, what did you do..." and then my rational side said "That is really great. I am glad you had a good time, I was hoping you would." He said that he felt more like himself, and that he missed me terribly and wished I was there. That made things way better. See, I know how to make a call on my feelings way better than I used to.
I need a day job. One that is preferrably part time, making at least enough to aid my household (I am making $12K on unemployment and that is a little less than I need to supplement Angel's income). I don't want a job. But I have to. Anyone have any ideas? I really really want it to be part time. It has to be. Low stress. No sales (I can't sell ice water to a guy that's dying in the desert). Other than that, I really don't give a shit. I will do a music store, bookstore, coffee shop, I was thinking maybe DKNY outlet...haha. I would spend too much there, I think. This is all really funny to hear from a Network Engineer with education and certs coming out the ass, but I have decided at this point in my life, I can't handle that AND my music career anymore. I have to make choices...and I have the ability to do so. Therefore, I am doing what I can while I can. Please, somebody, help me out here. I think the whole sound design thing sounds lovely, but it is going to be a full time (WAY full time) gig, and will I really want to record when I get home if that is what I do all day long? dunno. I don't know if I want to risk it.
Somebody give me a job, or an idea. PLEASE?!
Anyways...
My thought for the day: I am scared that blonde and black hair is going to look silly on me. I guess we will see in an hour.
My listening pleasure: Metropolis recording artist sampler, skipping over the shitty songs...
Wearing: shiny black cargo pants. I realized today that I own several pairs of shiny black cargo pants, and I love them all. The only prob is that although these are a size 3, my thong sticks out of them when I sit down (oops!)
Wish: That someone will be nice enough to take me on as a charity case and get me a job/front me some cash. Haha. Right.
My guy gets back today. I got to talk to him last night, and he had a great time at his show. He said that there were 5 or 6 people that recognized him from his findafreek site, which was good/worrisome because most of those "hey, aren't you..." comments come from mesmerized little goth girls in the prime of their lives...haha. I trust him though. He also apparently went to a pretty crazy afterparty. The funny thing is that for a moment I felt a tinge of worry and "oh gods, what did you do..." and then my rational side said "That is really great. I am glad you had a good time, I was hoping you would." He said that he felt more like himself, and that he missed me terribly and wished I was there. That made things way better. See, I know how to make a call on my feelings way better than I used to.
I need a day job. One that is preferrably part time, making at least enough to aid my household (I am making $12K on unemployment and that is a little less than I need to supplement Angel's income). I don't want a job. But I have to. Anyone have any ideas? I really really want it to be part time. It has to be. Low stress. No sales (I can't sell ice water to a guy that's dying in the desert). Other than that, I really don't give a shit. I will do a music store, bookstore, coffee shop, I was thinking maybe DKNY outlet...haha. I would spend too much there, I think. This is all really funny to hear from a Network Engineer with education and certs coming out the ass, but I have decided at this point in my life, I can't handle that AND my music career anymore. I have to make choices...and I have the ability to do so. Therefore, I am doing what I can while I can. Please, somebody, help me out here. I think the whole sound design thing sounds lovely, but it is going to be a full time (WAY full time) gig, and will I really want to record when I get home if that is what I do all day long? dunno. I don't know if I want to risk it.
Somebody give me a job, or an idea. PLEASE?!
Anyways...
My thought for the day: I am scared that blonde and black hair is going to look silly on me. I guess we will see in an hour.
My listening pleasure: Metropolis recording artist sampler, skipping over the shitty songs...
Wearing: shiny black cargo pants. I realized today that I own several pairs of shiny black cargo pants, and I love them all. The only prob is that although these are a size 3, my thong sticks out of them when I sit down (oops!)
Wish: That someone will be nice enough to take me on as a charity case and get me a job/front me some cash. Haha. Right.
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My guy STILL has not gotten back. I got an email at 4pm yesterday saying they were in DC. Dammit. They should have at least been back by this morning. If they aren't back soon, I know it is going to be until tonight before they get here.
My hair looks strange, but good. Everyone likes it. White-blonde (not as light as it will be when we do another run of bleaching to it) and black. I have superwoman hair...it feels no different after 3 runs of bleach than it did when I walked in there. *shrug*
Lunch?! I've barely had my coffee.
What are you doing tonight? We could go to IB.