contradiction

Hello everyone!

I just spent the best $30 I have in a while...no it wasn't that Ron Jeremy signature vibrator, it was a small handheld digital voice recorder. I was finally able to nail down a verse melody for that song I just wrote, and I am really happy. Now I just need to get my Angel to re-record my crappy ass guitar work HAHA. Maybe if I do this a couple more times, my manager will get off my ass. Uhhh....doubt it.

Speaking of my Angel, I am thinking there needs to be a party after we get our apartment set up and ready for visitors. Maybe I will wait til I am off house arrest so I can actually drink. Hmmm. Dunno. I will see what he thinks. He should be here Thurs.

I have to write/record 5 songs and I also have to chart a string arrangement...all this by Saturday. This is SO not getting done, especially with Angel's move, and all that shit. My manager is just going to have to give me a little time. Maybe another week. He is going to want to kill me.

Speaking of manager, why does he call me every fucking day from Conn.? You'd think he would be happy to get rid of me for a while. Silly man.

Thank you to everyone who helped with the song thing. So many people responded to me re: me changing my writing style to tell my manager where he can stick it. However, if I am going to make any money at this, that ain't such a hot idea. Don't worry, I will not EVER give up my identity, never stop speaking openly and even brutally when necessary, I will never drastically change anything in a direction that I don't feel is right. Period. I am doing this for way more reasons than making a buck or I wouldn't be doing it anymore. I do however want to give myself the best chance possible to be heard and be able to do this on a full time basis. So a little change is good, as long as it isn't selling my soul, I guess.