contradiction

Hahaha...I totally put my foot in my mouth again...silly contradiction, getting drunk and telling people what their weaknesses are. Oops.

Well, I told producer guy last night that I think he lets his fear control everything he does (of course while we were both smashed and fucking...HAHA). He actually admitted that it was the truth. But he thinks that it is a totally acceptable way to conduct himself...which I am in total disagreement with. Of course, I am also a big proponent of the idea that we all have the right to act however we want AS LONG AS IT DOES NOT HURT OTHERS OR HINDER THEIR GROWTH. Which is my problem. His fear creates condescention towards others, especially me. Fuck that. So anyways...get THIS...he launches into this "where is this going?" retort ("We are just two people that are working together that are fucking, if that is a problem, we'll stop"). HAHAHA - WHAT?!?! OKAY! (in the words of Dave Chappelle) Of COURSE...that was the whole POINT! Duh. But then he launches into this whole thing about how he thinks that he can help my career, and that I should appreciate that...HAHAHA!!!! Oh yes, that is why I am fucking you, right-o. I don't care who your daddy is, I am not that kinda girl.

So essentially what I took away from that is that a) he thinks that I am getting all weird about the physical thing, and wanting some big gnarly relationship (oh no, not at all...I am getting back together with my guy, why would I do that?), b) that he is a snotty fuck who thinks that he is going to make or break my career, and c) he thinks he has a right to treat anyone any way he wants.

I am seriously considering just sitting him down and saying, "This is complete bullshit. Grow up." Heehee.