I'm getting there. Baby steps of the teeny tiniest proportions is how.
Each and every person who left me kind words on my last entry gave me food for thought. Thank you all so much for being there and for humoring my little pity party. I needed an outlet and to know I'm not the only one who deals with this quarter life crisis bs. I have some truly wonderful internoodle friends.♥
Still going strong with the nannying. It's definitely not the cakewalk I thought it would be. In fact, it's one of the toughest ways I've ever earned a dime. But it's something, and it's helping me make a bit of progress with the overwhelming amounts of bills I have to rid myself of. The hours this week were a tad sporadic, so I have yet to start the hunt for a second money maker, but I now have at least a short term gameplan to see myself out of this mess.
One thing I need to learn is how not to let envy overwhelm my happiness for the people in my life who are moving on to bigger and better things. I see those I love prospering, getting good jobs, achieving their dreams and often feel left behind. It lately inspires more jealousy than anything else, and that's a bit unsettling. These things are not happening to my loved ones, they are making them happen. Which is precisely what I need to do - stop thinking mine or others' happiness relies on luck and get out there and EARN it.
I've taken to trying some daily affirmations again. I find a quote or two that inspire me and let em play on repeat inner monologue style anytime I need a boost. My favorite quote of the week I borrowed from an episode of Scrubs (which I've not only been watching daily but have been kicking myself for taking so long to catch on to the hilarity that is that show) -
Each and every person who left me kind words on my last entry gave me food for thought. Thank you all so much for being there and for humoring my little pity party. I needed an outlet and to know I'm not the only one who deals with this quarter life crisis bs. I have some truly wonderful internoodle friends.♥
Still going strong with the nannying. It's definitely not the cakewalk I thought it would be. In fact, it's one of the toughest ways I've ever earned a dime. But it's something, and it's helping me make a bit of progress with the overwhelming amounts of bills I have to rid myself of. The hours this week were a tad sporadic, so I have yet to start the hunt for a second money maker, but I now have at least a short term gameplan to see myself out of this mess.
One thing I need to learn is how not to let envy overwhelm my happiness for the people in my life who are moving on to bigger and better things. I see those I love prospering, getting good jobs, achieving their dreams and often feel left behind. It lately inspires more jealousy than anything else, and that's a bit unsettling. These things are not happening to my loved ones, they are making them happen. Which is precisely what I need to do - stop thinking mine or others' happiness relies on luck and get out there and EARN it.
I've taken to trying some daily affirmations again. I find a quote or two that inspire me and let em play on repeat inner monologue style anytime I need a boost. My favorite quote of the week I borrowed from an episode of Scrubs (which I've not only been watching daily but have been kicking myself for taking so long to catch on to the hilarity that is that show) -
Nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy.
Not really rocket science, but keeping things such as this in mind are what will help me get my fight back.
On a side note, I really didn't forget about the rest of our trip/gala pics, I swear. SOMEONE needs a friendly reminder to make with the resizing so that one or both of us can share them.
Have a good weekend, loves. 
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-TM