Kay, so I've FINALLY got a few spare moments alone with a computer that actually let's me log in. Update time!!!
I'm in a good mood, today, so we'll skip all the not so fun stuff and bad news. The good news is Greek boy and I are officially back on track. I'm planning on moving to Greece sometime in the next year (hopefully, sooner than later). I've even started to learn reading and speaking the language. I really think this is IT, kids, I think we're on the road to marriage.
I know, I KNOW, things have been pretty effed up between the two of us for a while. But I really do love him, I don't know what has come over me this past year. I treated him like shit, I ignored him, I neglected him. Not that he's blameless in all of this, but the way I treated him just isn't like me at all.
So, I guess you could say I've had a change of heart in a major way. My mind and heart just did a complete 360, now I'm all about us, fixing the damage we've both done, and starting a new life in a new land.
Some of you may be asking, "But.....wasn't she having issues with her sexuality? WTF?". Yes, I WAS. I've decided this doesn't have to be an issue if I don't let it. I am who I am, I'm ME, Lindsay; and I refuse to pick a flavor. Yes, I still want to explore a little, but this relationship is so much more important to me than that. Women please me aesthtically, and I do believe I have it in me to fall prey to that "love" word with another female. But I've found the love of my life, and he fills my heart to overflowing.
Am I going to be more vocal in my interest in women? Of course, and this is something he'll have to get used to. We'll see where this takes us - Dimo's a pretty adventurous guy, once he gets past the jealousy and ponders the possibilities, we may find a mutually beneficial solution to this bump in the road.
Whether or not that happens, I'm happy with just us, I love him that much. Sorry, guys, I'm a bit mushy as of late. I feel like I've been living in a damned soap opera, our story is so twisted and confusing.
So that's where I'm at. I've let ALL of my bills go, I don't give a care about my credit anymore. All I care about is getting my ass over there ASAP so we can give this another shot. I also need to make sure my mother is stable with all the new bills in the house before I up ad run. I've made a commitment to my family and I intend to see it through. Once my siblings get off their spolied lazy butts and get jobs, things should be ok. No, they STILL don't have jobs. Yes, they're driving me up the wall.
I DO enjoy all the time I've had to spend with my little brother. He's such a cool kid, I spend most of my free time with him. We both have a shared obsession with Guitar Hero, we play that shit for HOURS. I've got some serious calluses growing on my fingers, that game will be the death of me, I LOVE IT!!!!
I'm really proud of the progress I'm making learning Greek after all these years. This computer program I bought is the SHIT!! I'm sure many of you have heard of it - Rosetta Stone. I've tried just about every book, learning CD, program out there to learn to speak Greek, and nothing ever really sticks. But this REALLY works, it's amazing!!! I'm reading a language with a different alphabet, I've only been studying for a few weeks!! And it's fun, it keeps you going and challenges you just enough. Anybody looking to learn a new language I'd suggest you invest the $150 for this program, it's so worth it.
Now that I'm seeing such great results I'm more determined than ever. I am GOING to go find him, in his beautiful country, and we're going to live out our dreams together. And I WILL speak the native tongue, even if it's broken, I can't possibly go live in a place where I can't communicate with people. The good thing is he's from Athens, so English is widely spoken in such touristy cities.
Most of my friends and family think I'm nuts because I up and changed game plans so dramatically and so quickly. I'm following my heart, that's all I know how to do. Being true to myself is the only way I can explain how I feel. I held so much anger inside, for him leaving me for so long (the army "incident"), I had so many mixed emotions, my mind took a little vacation from "us". Well, it came back. That's all I can say....
The job is ho-hum, not liking it so much the more I get used to the place. It's a job, it's the same bullshit you find in any resturant, nothing out of the ordinary. I make a little bit more money than I did at Ponzio's, but I despise the staff. They're all young and clicky, it's just not for me. But it's not SO bad that I feel the need to leave, I'm comfortable to an extent, and right now it's all I've got so I'm ok with it. I've got bigger fish to fry, ATM.
I still miss SG somethin awful. I miss my friends, I miss my honey bear, I miss trading musica with eyerush, I miss taunting Cassiel with his pants, miss my girl Becca, and the boards, and the bewbies...........I will be back on a more permanent basis VERY soon.
Filikia
(yes, be prepared for me to start randomly talking to you in Greek. Practice makes purrfect!!)
I'm in a good mood, today, so we'll skip all the not so fun stuff and bad news. The good news is Greek boy and I are officially back on track. I'm planning on moving to Greece sometime in the next year (hopefully, sooner than later). I've even started to learn reading and speaking the language. I really think this is IT, kids, I think we're on the road to marriage.
I know, I KNOW, things have been pretty effed up between the two of us for a while. But I really do love him, I don't know what has come over me this past year. I treated him like shit, I ignored him, I neglected him. Not that he's blameless in all of this, but the way I treated him just isn't like me at all.
So, I guess you could say I've had a change of heart in a major way. My mind and heart just did a complete 360, now I'm all about us, fixing the damage we've both done, and starting a new life in a new land.
Some of you may be asking, "But.....wasn't she having issues with her sexuality? WTF?". Yes, I WAS. I've decided this doesn't have to be an issue if I don't let it. I am who I am, I'm ME, Lindsay; and I refuse to pick a flavor. Yes, I still want to explore a little, but this relationship is so much more important to me than that. Women please me aesthtically, and I do believe I have it in me to fall prey to that "love" word with another female. But I've found the love of my life, and he fills my heart to overflowing.
Am I going to be more vocal in my interest in women? Of course, and this is something he'll have to get used to. We'll see where this takes us - Dimo's a pretty adventurous guy, once he gets past the jealousy and ponders the possibilities, we may find a mutually beneficial solution to this bump in the road.
Whether or not that happens, I'm happy with just us, I love him that much. Sorry, guys, I'm a bit mushy as of late. I feel like I've been living in a damned soap opera, our story is so twisted and confusing.
So that's where I'm at. I've let ALL of my bills go, I don't give a care about my credit anymore. All I care about is getting my ass over there ASAP so we can give this another shot. I also need to make sure my mother is stable with all the new bills in the house before I up ad run. I've made a commitment to my family and I intend to see it through. Once my siblings get off their spolied lazy butts and get jobs, things should be ok. No, they STILL don't have jobs. Yes, they're driving me up the wall.
I DO enjoy all the time I've had to spend with my little brother. He's such a cool kid, I spend most of my free time with him. We both have a shared obsession with Guitar Hero, we play that shit for HOURS. I've got some serious calluses growing on my fingers, that game will be the death of me, I LOVE IT!!!!
I'm really proud of the progress I'm making learning Greek after all these years. This computer program I bought is the SHIT!! I'm sure many of you have heard of it - Rosetta Stone. I've tried just about every book, learning CD, program out there to learn to speak Greek, and nothing ever really sticks. But this REALLY works, it's amazing!!! I'm reading a language with a different alphabet, I've only been studying for a few weeks!! And it's fun, it keeps you going and challenges you just enough. Anybody looking to learn a new language I'd suggest you invest the $150 for this program, it's so worth it.
Now that I'm seeing such great results I'm more determined than ever. I am GOING to go find him, in his beautiful country, and we're going to live out our dreams together. And I WILL speak the native tongue, even if it's broken, I can't possibly go live in a place where I can't communicate with people. The good thing is he's from Athens, so English is widely spoken in such touristy cities.
Most of my friends and family think I'm nuts because I up and changed game plans so dramatically and so quickly. I'm following my heart, that's all I know how to do. Being true to myself is the only way I can explain how I feel. I held so much anger inside, for him leaving me for so long (the army "incident"), I had so many mixed emotions, my mind took a little vacation from "us". Well, it came back. That's all I can say....
The job is ho-hum, not liking it so much the more I get used to the place. It's a job, it's the same bullshit you find in any resturant, nothing out of the ordinary. I make a little bit more money than I did at Ponzio's, but I despise the staff. They're all young and clicky, it's just not for me. But it's not SO bad that I feel the need to leave, I'm comfortable to an extent, and right now it's all I've got so I'm ok with it. I've got bigger fish to fry, ATM.
I still miss SG somethin awful. I miss my friends, I miss my honey bear, I miss trading musica with eyerush, I miss taunting Cassiel with his pants, miss my girl Becca, and the boards, and the bewbies...........I will be back on a more permanent basis VERY soon.
Filikia
(yes, be prepared for me to start randomly talking to you in Greek. Practice makes purrfect!!)
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