umm so nothing going on today.
mom freaked out at me last night because i didnt go to math class. almost kicked me out. im begining to feel so smothered here. one of my friends is joining the army and will prolly end up in the airborne. i dont know whether im jealous of him or i pity him. ive always wanted to join the army but fuck bush and his plans. i wont let myself be his pawn. maybe after hes outta office ill join,but how can i join something that could be so hazardous when ive never had someone to love in my life. how can i know what my life is actually worth to myself when i cant see it reflected back to myself from someone that cares about me.
that probably makes little sense but im tired and its so hard to put into words these feelings without them sounding sappy or depressing.
in some better news a net friend helped me get a new comp set up now all i have to do is collect the money.
mom freaked out at me last night because i didnt go to math class. almost kicked me out. im begining to feel so smothered here. one of my friends is joining the army and will prolly end up in the airborne. i dont know whether im jealous of him or i pity him. ive always wanted to join the army but fuck bush and his plans. i wont let myself be his pawn. maybe after hes outta office ill join,but how can i join something that could be so hazardous when ive never had someone to love in my life. how can i know what my life is actually worth to myself when i cant see it reflected back to myself from someone that cares about me.
that probably makes little sense but im tired and its so hard to put into words these feelings without them sounding sappy or depressing.
in some better news a net friend helped me get a new comp set up now all i have to do is collect the money.
boy..girl..cute or not I love meeting new people.Keep in touch.Request granted.
-Vanity-