confident_loser

So I'm just sitting around at home bored today cause I have no work cause its starting to slow down. I started looking through some of my writings from when I was fucked up on heroin everyday. I think this one shows how fucked up things got. Taken by the swarm/ losing all control/ finding out that your life isn't meaningful/ lying on the floor/ dripping through the beams/ thinking that nothing is really how it seems/ running down the street/ dripping with cold sweat/ when did my life turn into this great regret/ looking down my nose/ breathing in the smoke/ now I know the world is just a fucking joke/ taken by the swarm taken by the swarm/ its getting hard to live life with one thing on my mind/ taken by the swarm taken by the swarm/ the world is just so boring doing the daily grind/ taken by the swarm taken by the swarm/ it just doesn't matter how the planets are aligned/ taken by the swarm taken by the swarm/ 'cause all I can think about now is where can I find/ the warmth of the swarm/ shallowing my breath/ slowing down my heart/ it gets hard just to tell life and death apart/ climbing out my mind/ floating through the space/ but soon I will just be back to the same place/ sitting in my room/ scratching at my skin/ wondering how long til the next time I sin/ try again with life/ work and sleep and play/ when I fall again I can't really say/ taken by the swarm taken by the swarm/ and I just can't find just whats really going on/ taken by the swarm taken by the swarm/ I think the world is just one big fucking con/ taken by the swarm taken by the swarm/ I think the world is ending it's coming on the dawn/ taken by the swarm taken by the swarm/ this time I really don't know how long I will be gone/ the warmth of the swarm. So wow it might not sound all that fucked up but just knowing how messed up I really was kinda boggles the mind. Anyhoo I'm going to keep reading this shit so I might have more to post later. peace.