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This may sounds harsh, but I'm creating a survey/application for making new friends. I'm sure they'd automatically be creeped out if I presented such a thing upon our meeting... Still, I wish I could. It's sort of like the dating profile on SG except much longer and more in depth.

Don't get me wrong, I have friends. I'm just tired of them. Either they're total loser druggies who live with my other friends and do nothing but smoke and sell weed and shrooms... or they think they're really intelligent and can't talk about anything but how stupid everyone else is... even though, i might add, they're not at all intelligent. they're stupid drunk retards with the perfect kind of memory to help them do well in school. Or they're just not people I feel terribly close to anymore.

I really want to meet people with my interests. I have one friend who pretty much fits the bill... Unfortunately something bad happened between her and my boyfriend, so even though I have gotten over it and still want to be friends, my boyfriend seems hesitant to get close to her again. I really hope he gets over it. They've been friends long enough that something like shit shouldn't tear them apart. Anyway, she's like 3 1/2 years older than me I think but she's so sweet and we have a lot in common.

Not only that, but she's not super-negative like I am and all my friends are. I want to have some of that positivity in my life. She's pretty religious and I don't really care because she doesn't sit there and talk about it when she knows you don't wanna hear it. I respect her beliefs as long as she respects the fact that I'm not very open about mine and prefer not to discuss them with other people.

So anyways I'm sure my application for friendship would insult a lot of people so I'll never show it to anyone unless they really want to see it. Then again, if they're offended by it, chances are they don't meet my standard. And it's not like it's really harsh or anything. There are just a few certain types of people I cannot and will no longer tollerate. They make me fucking crazy and I've been around them for the last 5 years. It's old. Unfortunately most people in my "subculture" are this way. I'm definitely not just the opposite, I am just one of few unfortunate people who find themselves somewhere in the medium. It's not a fun place to be. Everyone hates you because you don't agree with anybody like. Oh well.

I need new friends, preferrably girls, and must be in the portland metro area. Blah. I think I'm having a nervous breakdown.