Find that I have no time for anything right now. I should have mowed the lawn on Saturday, but didn't, watched dvd's all day and then went out for the night. Sunday I gamed and went out again... Monday, well I get home about the time the sun goes down so still haven't been able to.. maybe this Saturday. I could take time off work and go home to mow, but I have other things to do that I'd rather take the time off to do.. like this Thursday I think I'll take the afternoon off and go out.
Here I sit at 1:38 in the morning updating my journal for the first time in almost 5 days, instead of sleeping. Just got back from the store where I bought almost no food. Did you know there's such a thing as a "white" pumpkin? sounds kinda like blasphemy. Getting depressed cause my friend is depressed and I feel like I can't help and might even be a partial cause.
Work is sucking, falling behind, we just had a major upgrade and the computers were running at about a 10th of their normal speed so everything took 10 times longer to do..
Went out to eat with Benni after she was done with work last night. Felt so great, even though we didn't talk much. We went to this place that artists go to eat and you can draw on this paper on the table. She starts "doodling" (my words, she said something like that but I can't recall right now) and I'm watching... She is so fucking good... and that was just a doodle... I grabbed what she drew. Its mine, and you fuckers can't have it. Its now on a bulletin board in my kitchen... looks so fucking awesome... I wanna see something that she was serious about drawing now.. Wonder if she'll sell some of her work to me.. I'll have to ask her if I can commission her to do something... she should be selling on ebay.
I probably couldn't afford her work though... time to go to sleep after I check the boards real quick. Good emos to all and to all a good night!
Here I sit at 1:38 in the morning updating my journal for the first time in almost 5 days, instead of sleeping. Just got back from the store where I bought almost no food. Did you know there's such a thing as a "white" pumpkin? sounds kinda like blasphemy. Getting depressed cause my friend is depressed and I feel like I can't help and might even be a partial cause.
Work is sucking, falling behind, we just had a major upgrade and the computers were running at about a 10th of their normal speed so everything took 10 times longer to do..
Went out to eat with Benni after she was done with work last night. Felt so great, even though we didn't talk much. We went to this place that artists go to eat and you can draw on this paper on the table. She starts "doodling" (my words, she said something like that but I can't recall right now) and I'm watching... She is so fucking good... and that was just a doodle... I grabbed what she drew. Its mine, and you fuckers can't have it. Its now on a bulletin board in my kitchen... looks so fucking awesome... I wanna see something that she was serious about drawing now.. Wonder if she'll sell some of her work to me.. I'll have to ask her if I can commission her to do something... she should be selling on ebay.
I probably couldn't afford her work though... time to go to sleep after I check the boards real quick. Good emos to all and to all a good night!
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wait i guess im not really white...
but anyway i keep thinking about whatsgoing to happen for bennis b-day...its only just next month and wouldnt it be cool if she had something resembling a party that all could attend...quick, go rent out 1st ave or something!
iguess i'll have to settle for jumping out of the giant cake i made her. thong and stockings? ohhhhh, yeahhh.....
stay cool(yet at a constant 98.6 degrees as thats only healthy) see you later
lefty